tHe ScRiBe...

this last day of '08

2008-12-31T12:40:00.000-08:00

...What a year! Ups, downs, like a roller coaster... Heavy lessons at the many turns

I learned... Friendship is a GAME, Love isn't.
I learned... Wisdom is OFTEN scorned
I learned... Truth is MOSTLY ignored
I learned... Forgiveness and HOW to LeT GO

I loved...

So I thank all the special people who Were, who Are, who Will be and who MAY be... I thank you because with good or bad who taught me lessons this year.

In light of our squabbles, I am grateful for the scorn
And through the past troubles, how you held me in your arm
When "it" blinded me, how you helped me see
How you made me cherish the me I forgot so desperately

And to the ones who left and returned,
the ones I pushed off but still pressed on,
the ones who used and maybe abused... thank you

You who responded before I called,
it seemed like you were just always there
from January 1... the lover, the encourager,
the one we could all call brother (or sister)/lover/friend --
Thank you

I love you with all my heart....
May we all have an awesome 2009!!!
I cannot fully express how grateful I am that
we started... or ended this year...
I LOVE You way more than you can imagine!!!!

2009 IS OUR YEAR OF JOYYY!!!

Thoughts of my passion...

2008-12-18T06:35:00.000-08:00

How will it be?
Not like I'm going from pleasure to uncertainty
I mean, I'm quite familiar with the expectations
Question is, Am I ready?
For this, for that
For heat, for rats?
Am I ready for disorganized confusion...
or is there some organization in that disorganization?
Am I ready to be comfortable with
the stark raving inequalities
madness
To accept the dirt and dust-
like I'm accustomed to it, when I'm clearly not?
My biggest concern is - the people, my people
How will I deal with their brash mannerisms
and uncouthness
How will I endure the feferious humbugs?
No, I am not any better, more honest or any more civilized
but I have grown unaccustomed to these things i
lived free of for a sextet

I am nervous and afraid because I love them
I am afraid that they may not love me back
or they may have a strange way of showing it...
Or maybe the conditions surrounding have
suppressed their emotions
Now all they live for is self -- selfish ambition
Or maybe if I am extremely humble
with the lowest of expectations for my
brothers and sisters --
I'll be just fine.

Enter unnoticed, suffer in silence
grow accustomed and eventually join the pack...

December Greetings...

2008-12-02T11:50:00.000-08:00

Wishing you all an AWESOME December!!

God bless ...

brb

History Made

2008-11-04T22:22:00.000-08:00

Barack Obama is the 1st African American President of the United States of America... Yes We Can

and we shall... Amen

NOVEEMMMMMMMMMMBBBBERRR!!

2008-11-01T18:31:00.000-07:00

God is AWESOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEE!!!!!

He said October would be Awesome and it was cos He is!!!!! Right now, I'm jamming some JesusJams and praising cos. this Papa God is the greatest awesommmesssstttt evverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... if u ain't widdim, u bera join d train mayynnneeee...

Congrats 2 my padi gettin married dis mnth and to all the folks who got engaged (wink wink) or married last mnth -- may my own Papa God continually lead u in Jesus name -- AMENNN!!!

So, I've been so buuuussssssyyyy... hence the no-updating.. sorry avid readers... i should be back in full force soonest, amen.

Now for NOVEMBER... I pronounceeeeee NUMEROUS BLESSINGS FOR YOU ALL!! God will do the impossible for you this month just REMEMBER to give Him the HIGHEST and LOUDEST praise...
no -- matter -- what! :D

Ouddie mehnnn...

October begins in...

2008-09-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

Greetings All...

I failed to wish you all a Super September at the beginning of this month.. you have my sincerest apologies... I'm sure it was Super anyway... This month has been very interesting for me, in good ways and bad ways... I give God ALLL the glory, for his awesome mercies and unconditional love... So, hows it been for you?

Couple of things: CONGRATULATIONS to all the September Weds and Engag-ees!!! May your union be forever and fruitful indeed! Also the new moms or newly delivered moms and dads! Congrats!!!

So.. October begins in a couple of hours.... here goes... some new stuff.. in an effort to become more knowledgeable in technology, I am committing to one tech blog every week.. so help me God... I also need to loose my tummy... some weight sha.. so thats another personal project...
It seems like theres soooooooooooo much to do and not enough time in a day to accomplish all, but with God, all things are possible...

I'm really focused on the priZe - Heaven and others... I miss Olufemi tremendously... I'm gettin used to the absence sha.. did i mention i have A LOOTT on my plate?
God is good... Love Him, Serve Him, don't try to handle your business by yourself cos it may look like you're doing good now.. but in the long run.. trust me, you'll fail woefully..
I wrote like two poems yesterday.. enjoy one of them... still untitled.. mayBe you can help me title it ;)

Who can write a poem about nothing?
surely, we all
can set out to - but
When the pen tip kisses a surface
meaninglessness is lost
there is futility in trying
because - this piece evolves
when the offspring of
ink and paper's romance...
multiples and multiples
maybe in a ramble, a route-less turnabout
maybe a twisted beginning, an abrupt end
a tactless middle
surely that cannot be about nothing
So tell me, who can write a poem about nothing?
and succeed in convincing us that it is
-not like a love affair that did not
end up in marriage; not a journey, unplanned for
an exercise of consciousness
an attempt to cause a repression -
of faculties...
so what can i call this?
this piece.....

a poem about, a poem about nothing?
cos it still lies unwritten..........

May October OVERFLOW with many great goodies for you and your family... Amen! Stay blessed always!!!!!!

....another matter

2008-09-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

i can longer ask, "how do you do that?"
because now I know...
i have become one of them,
without question
I have gone far... but not all the way
far.. far enough to know that
we are on the same page.... I can relate

I can relate when you talk about those -
"other" things, the dirty things
because I have lost innocence in those matters

unfinished

...the next chapter

2008-09-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

i’m writing the next chapter…
of this thing we’ve termed love
The “not-so-sure-anymore” stage
The “why-me” stage
The “i’m-not-good-enough-for-you” stage

The QuEsTiOnS stage…
worsened by circumstances clearly seen
…
surety is best friends with doubt
confidence and confusion trudge hand-in-hand
Love is asking one word heavy queries like, “Really?”
packed with layers of choking difficulty -
uncalled and called for
… meaningless investigative dialogue
back-tracking to where the tree became a log
luscious beauty now may be a condemned necessity
What’s the learnable lesson?

But this may not be she -
in her …totality
Will you ever know? Will I?

Is this over?

fonder heart

2008-08-27T20:32:00.001-07:00

when care no longer suffices
we open our hearts to the deep longing
of this present's crisis
when talk becomes mundane
we struggle to make special feelings
never seem plain
when we accept this distance,
we embrace the hurt from its resistance
bear the consequences for refusing
to accept the consequences
then love begins to hurt
and the heart beat becomes an impatient race
to the core of our religion -
our religion of love
then hopefully, we've passed the question stage
we continue to fight and embrace...
this deep longing to
see, hold, watch, gaze, feel, touch
look, want, stop, give, take, go

explaining …self

2008-08-19T19:50:00.000-07:00

you say its more than physical
I quite agree with you
it’s intellectual, morally spiritual
I don’t have to get used to you
so, I’m waiting
sometimes I’m wondering
as I have no reason to
ask questions like,
“why?”
lol… I’m not in love…
I love
You. I must admit –
you got to chapter 13 while
i was still on 5
gave me a definition without words
to the authority I quoted later
and hereafter, just as before

deep cynicism says you’re
fighting the feeling
the real feeling
but she’s only a whisper,
merely audible…
she’s also very unwilling to
spoil our present, future in sight or not
i’m blessed with the imperfection
that you are – now
there’s beauty in knowing you can
want what you don’t have and
love what you don’t have
even when you can’t have it…

08/08

throwback...

2008-08-18T12:30:00.000-07:00

this poem has been on my mind.. probably learnt it in primary school or nursery... its crazy how these things stick...

"someone came knocking at my wee small door
someone came knocking, i'm sure, sure, sure
i listened, i opened
i looked from left to right
but nought there was astiring in the still dark night
only the busy beetle tap, tapping on the wall
only from the forest, the still owl's call
now i know not who came knocking at all, at all, at all"

love like He does

2008-08-17T22:53:00.000-07:00

What i don't want to do is
have regrets over you
over what we've had, still have
shared, still share
if tomorrow lets us...

You don't fully understand what has happened
I don't either..
it feels good though -
How my eyes are wide open
yet
the obvious is irrelevant
how my feelings scream louder than
this present's reality
How my imagination is not
oblivious to if-tomorrow-comes

And Baby, its strange how
I'm not pressed to convince you
that He loves you, way more than
you love me
Its not a struggle to not tell you
that if you love Him first
you can love me - totally...

You are a good man.

Love, I want to love you
the way He's teaching me to
in totality, unconditionally...

my only struggle is restraint
holding me back from
fully embracing unexplored feelings
unexplainable things

I love that you're unafraid to
love me and tell me you do
I only wish your feelings were
totally true...

Gosh whatever this is,
its a strong one, plus this
thing telling me
your convictions are stronger than
the love you proclaim

I maintain...
if you love Him
You'll love me more than you claim

...

2008-08-14T14:19:00.001-07:00

bone... my hair is BLACK!

listen

2008-08-06T11:09:00.000-07:00

inspired by M-I-B

Listen... to the words I speak
And the reason I believe
We can do this
Listen… to the song I sing
And the beat I make that it melds to
Listen… to the sound of my heart
When it’s not intact as it races
Listen… to my queasy stomach
Taking a dump to release the filth
of life's faeces

Listen

Listen to me on this podium
Where I take the stand that was once stolen
When I hold up high my fist in the sky –
Heaven’s Microphone

Listen

To the sound of the avalanche of my tears falling
To the cacophony of movement – destination unknown
on both street sides calling
To confusion’s confusion of words that make no sense
or reason…

Listen to me when I ramble
cos. I just might say something smart…

Auspicious AuGuSt!

2008-08-04T10:58:00.000-07:00

Did you know that another meaning 4 august is something that inspires respect and admiration...?

I pray u have an Awesome month... with things that will cause all to admire and respect you.
That August be an Amazing month, Astonishing & Amorous :)

Amen!

"like Jonah", coming soon

JOYOUS JULY!

2008-07-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

I pray you have a joyous, jubilant July and all your prayers answered...

ps: the scandal is very sad and shudn't be publicized...anonymous PLEASE stay away 4rm my blog. hisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

sigh

2008-06-26T07:47:00.001-07:00

Oliver De Coque.. dead? What is life??

since my literary juices are flowing....

2008-06-17T10:42:00.000-07:00

Short Story

My best friend’s ex was the one who opened the door. I hadn’t seen her since I got introduced to her… five weeks before they broke up. I remember her clearly, because, well because I’m very good at remembering faces. There wasn’t much to be said because these past weeks didn’t need much to say to escalate or diminish the impact of it.

What transpired. transpired.

I wasn’t transfixed to one spot but apparently she was… maybe the stifling heat had all of sudden become breeze from a beach laced with romantic Indian songs, with my entrance. I took a seat because she hadn’t offered and we sat in silence … after she came out of her trance. I wasn’t wondering what was going through her mind, I was thinking of what I was doing and the complexity of trying to mend broken hearts. I was wondering if she remembered me.

See many times, I have tried to be the “hero” – save the world from matters arising from the blood-pumping chambers… I had had many fallouts, many… ok maybe few successes but they were successes. This one, this one seemed to be forming into what had become the norm for me these past years. Maybe it was time for me to settle down

xxx

My best friend’s ex finally found her voice, after clearing her throat countless times. She offered me red wine; I declined with a humorous excuse, which earned us both a laugh. With the ice broken, she proceeded to speak deeply; passionately about the affairs of things… she clearly didn’t remember me. My voice had become more familiar than my face – she couldn’t even look at it as she spoke. I knew why. Her eyes would betray the truth of the matter especially in this current position - me in the room with her. My eyes could probably tell all as well, but I was stronger; maybe not strong enough to not betray the other mystery.

Her words brought emotions only she could understand or maybe I just wasn’t paying attention… my mind still lost in the thoughts I had while she was in her trance. Only now the thoughts had modified to realization especially on the part of her not recalling my facial features. She was now in tears and weeping as she spoke. Her tears fell to her lips and she ate them, just like she ate the words that came out of her mouth. I was unmoved. My heart was not hardened, I was just unmoved. Maybe she was pretending… why did she not remember me?

30 minutes into this mild mêlée of emotions, my words calmed her and I found my body close to hers as well… only in comfort. Then she became vulnerable, only because I was. Our physical contact seemed to last longer than her sad wary speech; but I got up to leave two minutes after. I had fulfilled my mission... or had I?

She walked me to the door, and I gave her another pat on the back, “everything will be just fine...” I muttered, “I promise.” I walked slowly to my vehicle, just for the dramatic effect, letting the stifling heat transform to some helicopter wind from a Sylvester Stallone movie, for me. I turned round and she was there peering with a sad smile… I got in the car wondering if I would be back and what I would be back for. I had to fight this. What will people say when they hear this… if I let those blood covered chambers speak for me?

I had locked my heart up tightly, yet my best friend’s ex still rocked my world.

on adedibu...

2008-06-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

“iku to pa ojugba eni, owe nla lo n pa fun ni”

(the death of one’s mate is a warning signal)

lines

2008-06-05T08:49:00.001-07:00

"when does danger become safer than safety?"

Obama in my eyes

2008-06-03T19:14:00.000-07:00

Looking back at the beginning of this campaign...
I had faith.. still I thot it was impossible

Look how many things tried 2 stand in his way... look at how now... they barely matter... in fact they don't matter at all.

Look how all stupid opposers look....

Look how dumb the opponents seem...

Obama's nomination gives me a glimmer of hope that no matter what obstacle I may face, my destiny is my destiny and NO ONE can take it away from me.

... this June

2008-06-01T04:33:00.000-07:00

I pray will be joyful for you and I. Jubilations will not seize and Jesus will be at the head of all our journeys, Amen!

Be blessed always!

sigh

2008-05-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

I don't want to... but i miss him

so much... **sigh**

MAY MARVELS!!!!!!

2008-05-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Here's to a merry month of Marvelous Miracles!!
May your prayers be answered according to God's will and may this month bring you lots of good things!!

Be blessed always!!!!! :)

**ooohhh, i fink yesterday was IceCream Day! I'm getting mine 2day!!! hehehehe!!

Judgmental...

2008-04-21T17:58:00.000-07:00

Today, I was called "JUDGMENTAL"
by not one, but two people.. one of them, a "close" friend..
at the same time
No, it wasn't an attack...

Am I judgmental? I don't want to be....

AWESOME APRIL!

2008-04-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

Here's to Amazing,
Abundant,
Astounding Abilities

and Achievements this APRIL!!! :)

victor angel's lyrics

2008-03-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

9ja Gospel Artist... I'm at work.. and i remember his lyrics

Thank God!
God no be man oh
for if man be God oh
I for don die oh
I for don kpeme oh!

Thank God
God no dey use
the spirit of man to judge
Thank God
God no dey use

the heart of a man to destroy

Thank God
God no dey use "the something" of man to condemn
The ways of my Father is not the ways of men

Thank God
God no be man oh
For if man be God oh
I for don die oh
I for don kpeme oh

Why I fired my secretary

2008-03-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

"Last week was my birthday
and I didn't feel very well
waking up on that morning.
I went downstairs for breakfast
hoping my wife would be pleasant and say,
'Happy Birthday!',
and possibly have a small present for me.
As it turned out,
she barely said good morning,
let alone
' Happy Birthday.'
I thought...
Well, that's marriage for you,
but the kids...
They will remember.
My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfast
and didn't say a word.
So when I left for the office,
I felt pretty low
and somewhat despondent.
As I walked into my office,
my secretary Jane said,
'Good Morning Boss,
and by the way
Happy Birthday ! '
It felt a little better
that at least someone had remembered.
I worked until one o'clock ,
when Jane knocked on my door
and said, 'You know,
It's such a beautiful day outside,
and it is your Birthday,
what do you say we go out to lunch,
just you and me.'
I said, 'Thanks, Jane,
that's the greatest thing
I've heard all day.
Let's go !'
We went to lunch.
But we didn't go
where we normally would go.
She chose instead at a quiet bistro
with a private table.
We had two martinis each
and I enjoyed the meal tremendously.
On the way back to the office,
Jane said, 'You know,
It's such a beautiful day...
We don't need to go straight back to the office,
Do We ?'
I responded,
'I guess not.
What do you have in mind ?'
She said,
'Let's drop by my apartment,
it's just around the corner.' After arriving at her apartment,
Jane turned to me and said,
' Boss, if you don't mind,
I'm going to step into the bedroom
for just a moment.
I'll be right back.'
'Ok.' I nervously replied.
She went into the bedroom and,
after a couple of minutes,
she came out
carrying a huge birthday cake ....
Followed
by my wife,
my kids,
and dozens of my friends
and co-workers,
all singing 'Happy Birthday'.

And I just sat there...

On the couch........NAKED."

okay guys soooo, I didn't write the piece, Mr Nollege Wizdumb, my multi-talented hottie of a friend, sent it to me... u shud check out his blog!!!!

HAVE A BLESSED EASTER... I'll be back shortly!!

Hypocrites anonymous 1

2008-02-28T22:34:00.000-08:00

I honestly will not call myself a "scribe" in the true sense of the word.. but i do have "scribe" tendencies

I do not speak about my writing skills, I speak of my HYPOCRITICAL tendencies...

See, there are MANY things I've done out of naivety, curiosity, sheer ignorance or just total rebellion and I have buried them deep down... so deep down that sometimes i forget... of course I've repented and never gone back to them but there is the one called "the-accuser-of-the-brethren"...

all in all... i do not claim perfection but i strive to it everyday... remembering (as hard as it is) that these "sins" have been blotted out of my heavenly record, by my heavenly Father who loves uncinditionally.. only earthly minds like mine remain scarred and it ought not to be so...

In all this, I have seemingly become a "judge"
calling people out on their "wrongs"
forgetting that I too, had baggage that stinks BAD!!

A wise friend of mine once said, "the more you cover it up, the more it will stink"
no lie... thats why theres restitution... I keep going back to myself

so i have become judge oh... preaching to the world and condemning them
so much so that some pple call me SU...
at some point I started to feel very attractive to sin
because my strive for spiritual perfection is not a silent one...

if you read this, and i have ever made you in the slightest way, to feel unworthy.... please forgive me and know that I only try to protect myself from my strong attraction to "sin" by condemning you...

I have thought several times... "happy are those, who have enjoyed a FREEEE life "of sin" after which they turn to Jesus and receive a full salvation that knows no bounds.. nothing of this world can ever interest them... kinda like New testament Paul" I have also thought, "ah me... struggling to keep my head above water... i haven't "enjoyed the world", I can't go BACK to it.. cos i don't know what "it" feels like... If i ever make a decision to "be of the world" it will be a new orientation for me.... brand new and a real step-down... in the spiritual race.."

I have often thought these things... i have also often envisioned judgment day when God will play our lives on the super huge flat screen... then the world will see my imperfections

I know i care much about my image, because i care about my message... my message that comes off as hypocritical to some, impossible to others.......

to be continued

a year ago today...

2008-02-22T05:29:00.000-08:00

I started this blog, unsure of what stories to tell
unsure of what the journey would be like
Today, I feel great about my blog... I haven't blogged every single day
I've had lapses but i've enjoyed blogville IMMENSELY...

So I recount my experiences in real life and on blogville since February 22nd, 2007

I had a clique
I thought I had a potential...
I was clueless
I won the Blogville Idols Competition (pinkpeke, time 4 another)
I found some deeply amazing blogs
Bimby started and finished an excellent book series
Some cool people I know joined and stayed on blogville (Paradigm, Adia, Uch, Undaconstruction, Nollege Wizdumb- new blogger by the way... HAWT!!!)
I met some outstanding bloggers (Tayo, Laspapi - mentor m, Favored Girl, Princesa, Comrade, Tope, OverWhelmed, etc)
I found some informative blogs
I uncovered some "open secrets"
I discovered so much about myself
I grew up - spiritually
I turned 22!!!!
I stepped on a nail, and had 2 get a painful tetanus shot
I let go of a LOT of baggage (still have a little left 2 deal with)
I gained possession of dReAm - my beautiful guitar
I developed a better relationship with Jesus
I loved (still love)
I wrote PLENTY
I met new people
I made and broke some promises
I divinely received several lucrative business ideas
I made mistakes and fixed some...
I received unspeakable joy (thank you Jesus)
The Holy Spirit became my senior partner
I'm set for the rest of my journey on blogville!

...dReAm

2008-02-18T19:29:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

I now own a guitar.. her name is Dream
I only know of her origin (how i got her)
I do not know much about her specifics... but Chris is determined that I learn...
this and more

hApPy VaLeNtInE's DaY...

2008-02-14T05:53:00.000-08:00

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." 1stCorin.13v4-7

"Three things will last forever - faith, hope, and love - and the greatest of these is love" 1stCorin.13v13

"Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. 1stJohn4v7&8

na wa oh...

2008-02-11T16:46:00.000-08:00

a "purer" form

"Ever known the feeling of when a feeling is

Mutual… very mutual

Yet, nothing. Absolutely nothing can be done about it

Ever known what it feels like to just stare in a person’s eyes

Not seeing anything because you both don’t want to

Sit in the same room. Brush palms. Stare longer and longer

Vertically sited

Eyes, forehead, lips, chin, ears, neck, tummy

Noticing every mark, curve… even in the dark evening

Then leaving

Without doing what your senses scream to do

Because you both don’t want to

You cannot spoil what you have now –

No.

You cannot spoil what may come in the future

…May. come. in. the. future

You both want this badly but

You love too much

You care too much to

Mess it up.

You are embattled by temptation

So deep, so strong that

It hurts when you walk away

You wonder when it will be, if it will be

When you both talk, “its” there…

“It’s” got to be more than lusting

So much has happened

You both are so trusting

So much so that you know you must not

Mess this up."

'hypocrites anonymous' update coming soon...

hYpOcRiTeS anonymous!!!

2008-02-10T11:39:00.000-08:00

will update soon

Obama for PRESIDENT!

2008-02-08T19:45:00.001-08:00

Please check out dis video! Very moving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.dipdive.com/

"WETIN MAN GO DO" VIDEO!

2008-02-08T08:49:00.001-08:00

The Amplifyd video - Wetin Man Go Do is OUT!! on www.mytruspot.com or truspotradio.com

I've seen it! I love it! hehehehhehehehehheehe.. find out why

the oThEr SiDe...

2008-02-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

I don't want you to see that side of me
that side of me, you would never believe
cold heart.. uncaring... NOT caring AT ALL!

No, i don't want to show you that side
I sincerely don't want you to see the side
that'll see you crying and NEVER ask why
and walk away, unshaken, uncaring

I don't want to stop caring... but i'm almost there!

I don't want you to see the side that
never picks up when you call
that ignores your "pain" and maybe wishes you more
and more pain.... (muhahahahhahaha)

I don't want you to even smell the side
so pungent. it reeks of
malice - the long buried enemy
a nasty cold shoulder,
of you in the background, licking sores u created

Please, stop pushin me.

ASA

2008-02-07T06:23:00.000-08:00

She has helped me believe even more that you must be yourself and do for yourself what you want based on your visions and goal... NOT based on what is "hot" or what is seen as "lucrative"...

I saw HeR!!!!!!

2008-02-05T13:15:00.000-08:00

okay.. so I must not be such a terrible person but why do i feel so bad???!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I figured there are some things that must happen in life... these things are good or bad... but i don't want to do "bad" what is defined bad? is it really bad... but why does my conscience tug me so???!!!!!!!!!!!!

is it my fault? is it? i think it is.... but i want to blame someone else!! who can i blame? i'll blame Brian.. lol (he's looking over my shoulder as i write this) seriously though....

I'll finish this tonight as soon as i receive that phone call.. cos. i don't want anything bad to come out of this, really... a good friend is a great idea but thats all it should be, thats all i REALLY want.

One good friend, with lots in common
One good friend, brutally honest
One good friend, of course its a guy
One good friend, unafraid 2 show friendship yet sensisitive of his girlfriend's feelings
Just one friend mehn.... it MUST not become anything else!!!

AMEN!!!

ARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-03T18:40:00.000-08:00

Its not confusion
I'm just finding it hard to see
my responsibility
as a possibility that this is my
path.... my path to fulfilling destiny

maybe. maybe not?

I'm petrified. In the "what if" stage
I'm just sooooooooooo confused
and suddenly I wish this blog was anonymous
So i could REALLY pour it all out
and ask your opinion...
you who doesn't know me

Who doesn't know how phony I really am
Who doesn't me my glaring insecurities
My uncertainties.... I do not know what to do!!!!!!

I'm mad at me, for being so honest
so "nice", not strong enough to pull out, say no, MOVE ON!
Even when no love is lost?

Pray for me, Please.

"WETIN MAN GO DO" VIDEO RELEASE

2008-02-01T18:54:00.000-08:00

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

Baltimore, MARYLAND – Amplifyd Crew will release the much-anticipated music video for the hit song, “Wetin Man Go Do” tomorrow - Saturday February 2, 2008!

With this exciting new development, the organization is showing appreciation to all Amplifyd supporters in the MD/DC/VA areas, as this is where the company has called home. Supporters in these areas have the opportunity to see the video FIRST!

B-eazy states excitedly, “We’ve teamed up with our friends from Groove Entertainment and the video will be showing exclusively this Saturday night (02.02.08) at the Blu Lounge in Bethesda Maryland!” Doors open at 9pm and there is no cost before 11pm for everyone who is on the guest list. Please do not hesitate to join the guest list by visiting http://syr.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8402431733

On Friday February 8, 2008 Amplifyd plans an even bigger release for fans all across the globe, in appreciation for unwavering support over the years. The entire “Wetin Man Go Do” video will be made accessible for streaming on www.amplifydcrew.com. It will also be available for download on ipods.

In case you haven’t seen the video trailer, please visit this page to be a part of this phenomenon.
http://vjc.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=505216814966&oid=2204989523

The fun only begins here for Amplifyd this 2008. On Saturday, February 16th, 2008 Amplifyd Entertainment & SoSo Selective will be having the Annual Valentines Weekend Massacre Bash. It will be held at the Mayorga's Café. B-eazy warns, “mark your calendar folks, its gonna be one heck of a night and the fun does not stop here!”

For more information on the “Wetin Man Go Do” video release party tomorrow – Saturday February 2, 2008, please contact Temie on 410-493-2799 or visit www.amplifydcrew.com for more information. You can also visit http://syr.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8402431733 to join the guest list.

Have a great Amplifyd weekend!

Amplifyd Worldwide

Here's to a FESTIVE FEBRUARY!

2008-02-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

I pray that this month be full of flamboyant festivities for us all!

May we find a reason to celebrate God, Life and Love!!! Amen!!
Today is my Godmother's birthday, I haven't talked to her in like.... I should call her.. I will call her!

Five things February will be for you and me!

February will be FINE!
February will be FUN!!
February will be FLAMBOYANTLY FESTIVE!!!
February will be FORTUNATE!!!!
February will be FAVORABLE!!!!!!

Prophectically speak into this month and say what february will be for you...
Fasting also starts today in all R.C.C.G Churches worldwide... this is our year of LAUGHTER!

HAHAHAHAHAHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!! LMAO! LOL!!!!!

Peace, Love and God's blessings!

January 31st

2008-01-31T04:19:00.000-08:00

A year ago today, I lost someone I could have found to be precious.. It hurts me more cos I never met him... and I was downcast like I almost am now... I'm just wondering why good people have to die.... and I write this to encourage me and whoever else may feel this way...

When we think He can't hear us
He's not there. He can't see us
He knows
More than ever how much we need Him
So silently He, uses the gentle breeze to
dry our eyes
and He fortifies us, providing answers to our cries
healing for our hearts and strength for our weary bones

Because we cannot understand why
things appear for us so terribly different
we cannot finger our fault compared to the neighbors
We must stay trusting because
He knows
Our daily inner conflicts... more, more than we
can ever imagine
He is here. He will be here. Always.

confirmed...

2008-01-29T19:42:00.000-08:00

it is confirmed
what I feel in my heart is love... there is no way it can be anything else

what i feel in my heart is LOVE

a lil' more detail

2008-01-29T08:55:00.000-08:00

so i met Laspapi (my mentor!!!) and I attended one of his plays.. it was WOWZERS!!!!!!!
I got to chill with some of my cool buds! Hamza is the bestest!

Nhow, I also wrote a lot, prayed a lot, worked a lot and LOST SOOO MUCH WEIGHT!!

This one is to wet your taste buds a lil' ... and its not yet titled

My rebound lasted a year
And it was you
You were not my relationship
Hard as I tried, it only became
clearer and harder
My words fought my actions
my actions fought the truth
You are the truth.
What I meant to do, I didn't do
Could not do. because I
thought I was afraid of
loosing you, hurting you.... I wasn't.
I only know it now - you were
my rebound, baby.
I cannot say I'm sorry because
it will not suffice
It will not clean up the tears
that fell from your eyes
Because you ignored the ghostly whispers
and chose to be
defeaned by the silence of my soundtrack.
Or our songs.
So many forces fought against this.
I made many promises. To them. Then to you. And me
I was sprung many times,
confused many more.
Heavy hearted with thoughts that
paralyzed me... and they
weren't fun thoughts of you.
I was afraid, you were too.
We lost all confidence and
strenght to pursue
There is a lightness I feel by
my realization and disclosure
I know you'll forgive me and I pray you
find it in your heart to forgive yourself.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2008-01-29T06:18:00.000-08:00

I'm back.... and no, i haven't lost the will to blog.

Holidays were restful and nice. Bloggers get-together was fun.

2008 is our year of DIVINE JOYFUL RESTORATION!!!

...I'll blog some more later

OuDDiE...

2007-12-18T22:40:00.000-08:00

Off 2 see Tayo, and other bloggers in real life...
Will see OZ after some years, and Genie hopefully
And the "guy I like"...

Will leave in flying metal gear, dressed to impress
Armed to disarm...

Praying for a favored trip...

God bless Y'all always!!!!!!!!!!
Peace, Love and God's blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the Chinese Conspiracy...

2007-12-17T08:15:00.000-08:00

What if there was a Chinese conspiracy... worldwide?
One that will affect politics, economics, science, literature, all that makes sense!

What if it was a chemically planned conspiracy... subtle, unimaginable
To attack ALL and sundry and bring embarrassmant to all
What if this conspiracy was brewed and eschewed in fabrics, textile and production?

What if the Chinese produce a fabric, chemically generated to obey scientific commands such as fade, rip, burst open, disappear...
What if at the touch of a button, the Chinese could control the world's nakedness... (seeing everything we wear is made in China.. right down to underwear)
What if? What would we do? How will that day be like??

Imagine this
New York City, Manhattan
The hustle and bustle, people up and down in fly clothes, shoes, bags, jackets. Catching the metro, in and out if stores, pricing merchandise, the lovely lady having lunch, the old ladies shopping, men in suits heading for Wall Street... everyone on the grind.

....

Suddenly like a flash, pink, yellow, black bodies - bare... Everyone is naked and they know it!
Someone, somewhere in the orients has pushed the sacred button!

EVERYONE IS NAKED!!!! Stark naked!!!! Abashed, confused, shocked!! All the Chinese fabric - GONE! poof! Gone! People hiding in buildings to cover nakedness, some rushing to the now empty textile stores...

The President is NAKED!
So is Condoleeza,
Babara Bush is naked!
Oprah is on t.v NAKED!
Hilary Clinton is naked!
Obama is NAKED!
Everyone in America is naked!

Except few who aren't wearing "made-in-china" fabric... who are these few? No one sees them!

Butts, arms, thighs, breasts, scars, birthmarks, various shapes, various sizes... jiggling to hide nakedness... if there was a Chinese Conspiracy!

CuPiD's TeArS...

2007-12-13T08:32:00.000-08:00

Was there ever a time I appeared ungrateful?
Was there ever a time I pretended, wasn't true?
You looked at me in my eyes, and forgave....

When I left you, locked you out, ignored your calls
You left messages, sent text messages
For me a coward... I knew....
You loved me, unconditionally

The love that made you wait in the rain
That made you cry, when I took you for granted
That made you sing to me, for me

Something you don't usually do...

You've broken many rules for me -
now that I think about it
I know you love me, you always have, you always will

I love you too... I just have a weird way of showing it
I love you so much
Not because of all my enviable gifts
Not because you love me
I love you because, I can't help it
I've never thought of not loving You

Loving You makes me happy....
It makes my heart beat -
My soul come alive
I am afraid sometimes, of myself
Because you are older than me, more experienced...

Can I love you like you love me
and love no one else?

I love You soooo much
Soooo much

You are MY essence
The reason I live and exist
I was made for You, Your pleasure

I love the warmth and comfort of You
I know I may NEVER be able to show my love as You always show Yours

But I want you to know, I LOVE YOU!!!!
The day I stop loving you, I will stop living - eternally

The Surprise of God!

2007-12-07T07:41:00.000-08:00

I was supposed to blog about this siiiiinnnceeeee........ The first sunday of this month. Our thanksgiving service in House of Praise was the BOMMMMM!!! (as these young pple say) Nway, the praise was on point, so was the preaching by Pastor Jerry Olcson (I think thats the spelling)....

We read from Mark 16: 5-6 and the topic was - "The Surprise of God"

Notes:

Be not afraid. We must live a daily life with the knowledge that God delights in surprising his people. Some examples of God's surprise - Exodus 3 (Moses and the burning bush), Acts 16

Sometimes surprises are sooo big that when you see it, you will not be able to believe it just like when Peter was delievered from jail (even the people that were praying for him, did not believe that he had been rescued) I Pray that God will give us all that kind of surprise in Jesus name, Amen!

Let God be God!!!! People should NOT already or try to imagine how God will answer! Do NOT presuppose the way God will enter your situation. Don't try to figure Him out.

The surprise of God:
It is ALWAYS UNEXPECTED
It is ALWAYS UNDESERVED
It is ALWAYS UNPREDICTABLE ....don't try to predict your future
It is ALWAYS UNBELIEVEABLE ....this means, it will BLOW YOUR MIND!!!

To receive the surprise of God...
Believe that GOD CAN!!
Believe that GOD CARES!! ....in His heart
Believe that GOD BLESSES!! ....in His grace, that He will bless you in spite of yourself
Believe that GOD SAYS!! ....in His word

"In order to reach those who aren't being reached, you've got to be able to relate to them" Heb. 11:6, Rom. 10:10 The preacher said this when he was giving a testimony about his experience with drug dealers when he was a policeman some years back....

MAY GOD SURPRISE US ALL BEFORE THE YEAR RUNS OUT IN JESUS NAME, AMEN!!!

7 weird things about me

2007-12-05T09:35:00.000-08:00

Laspapi tagged me! My first tag ever.. lol, so now that I have a little "break" off work, lemme do this...

7. I REALLY don't like hurting people's feelings even if its for their own good.

6. Chocolate makes me soooooo UNBELIEVABLY happy!!!!!

5. I speak & write in parables sometimes (too bad for you if you don't get, there are people who understand)

4. My actions DO speak louder than words

3. I am TOOOOO unselfish (its Jesus First, Others next and Myself last)

2. I look forward to marriage and having as many kids as possible (used to say ten kids... then seven now i'm thinking five... I'm DEFINITELY going to adopt when I grow olderrr)

1. I CAN and I WILL write about ANYTHING!!! (sometimes rather than talk)

Thanks Laspapi... I tag Omulu, Adia, Neef, Chizo, DaParadigm, Ozaveshe, & Yemol

DECEMBER!

2007-12-02T18:36:00.001-08:00

Here's to wishing everyone a BEAUTIFUL LAST MONTH IN 2007!!
May God bless all your endeavors and continually bless you!

Love, Peace and God's blessings!
The Scribe

in my errrr.... fantasizing moments

2007-12-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

So I was on the bus home one night after class and I was inspired to write "wedding vows"... step of faith towards marriage? maybe... or just my mind doing overtime... lol. ENJOY!

When God put you to sleep, He brought me out
and for this, I am grateful
That I searched and I found you, as you found me...
to love , protect, befriend, love.
I have found true love in you.

Because of this,
I will be your wife, your friend, your sister
your lover, your mother.
I will respect you as my head, revere you like my father
and I will love you above all else.

Today, I give you my entirety,
everything that becomes me.
Because, you and I seize to exist
Because we are reborn before all as one -
in mind, body, soul and spirit.

I love you, (first name, middle name, last name) today, always and ever...

"Nothing can take my Joy away!"

2007-11-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

YAHHH!!!! Thats my proclamation!!!

I'm listening to www.doveradionetwork.net and they r playing one of my fav. songs -
"Almighty God my Redeemer.. my hiding place, my safe refuge, no other name like Jesus, no power can stand against You. My feet are planted on this rock and I will not be shaken......
ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!"
_______________________________________________

...a part of my JoY!
Nways, one-of-the-best-things-that-happened-to-me turns the big 18 tomorrow!! So this post is dedicated to my beautiful, hot, sexy, blessed, mature, adorable, little sister!
This babe is BLESSED. I always tell her one of the things that fascinates me about her is how she reacts when people do things to irk her ... she doesn't react at all (lol) You have to PUSH those buttons NUMEROUSSSSS times before you get a reaction!

I love my lil' sister and My love, I want to be a good older sister ALL the time!
I remember some of our rare quarrels, (well, not really quarrels, just me yelling my head off most times). I also remember all our chill and gist times! Mehn this lil' sister can be PESKY sometimes! geezzzz.... u don't want 2 get her started when shes in d mood....

When we were younger, I used 2 tell her stories and she'll follow me everywhere till the story was finished! I cherish those moments, a great deal... My lil' sister can cook!!!! HA! She like trying out mede medes and shes sooooooooooooooooo intelligent and mature!
Not a talkative at all.. until u get her started (lol)

Nene, my love, I LOVVVEEEE you VERY MUCH!!! And I pray that in this 18th year, God will baptize you with His glory and lift you up to greater heights.
God will continue to protect you from destiny destroyers or destiny destroying activities. You will dwell in the presence of God all the days of your life. In blessing, God will bless you. He will bless those who bless you and curse those who curse you.
Academically, you will excel. Spiritually, you will be used for His glory. Indeed, your life will be a testimony and encouragement for the world. You will be great and your entire life will be worthwhile!
No wickedness of man will come near you. All that the Lord has promised you will be yours and no enemy will steal it from you in Jesus name, Amen!
People will look at you and know that indeed the Lord is good and worthy to be praised!
I love you my sweet okon! the only cockroach in my cupboard. I loovvvveeee u soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! I pray that you will be greater than all your peers ALL IN JESUS NAME, AMEN!!!!!

KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

To You - (you know who you are and I hope u read this...)

2007-11-27T08:47:00.000-08:00

Since you've given me no reason, even though I've asked. You've pratically forced me to make very very dangerous assumptions. And I will cos. I can.

I know I'm not perfect... I want to be like Jesus... Its hard but I will get there.
Right now, I am ANGRY (well, not really... but i have 2 be angry 2 post this blog well)

______________________________________________

I think you are VERY jealous that I possess certain qualities you wish u had
You are jealous because you see that I am not jealous of what you have
and you know you are jealous of what I have

See materially, you are totally balling. I'm happy for you
Lets be real, spiritually you THINK i'm doing better...
So it bothers you

You want to be forgiving, joyful, in love with Jesus
You want to have TRUE FRIENDS (male and female)
Deep down you do...
But you can't, its not you
and you're jealous that I can

You're jealous that I love my homeland so much
And have made sacrifices so I can stay in touch with the soil
You can't make those same sacrifices
You want to, but you can't or maybe you could and pay the consequences
But you don't
So you are Jealous!

You are jealous that I can block you out with my music
Jealous that I have changed so drastically and you haven't
Because you are always right
Because everyone correcting you, hates you
Because we are ALL blinded by the same piece of cloth
woven by someone else's words or your actions

You are jealous because I am not afraid of you or anyone
You are jealous because ....
I don't even know why you are jealous

I mean, you have what you want
You are at a great place in your life!

Why do you want to keep me down with your negative air?
Why do you feel a need to do these things you do
Am I the only one who knows its wrong?
NO! ClearlyNot!

But I wish you weren't so jealous... I do because it WILL destroy you. Not me
It could destroy everything you've worked for
The more you manifest it, the more I ignore you and do you good.
The more you heap hot coals on your head and bring your generations to fiery destruction

Now, why would you want to do that?

To be continued...

New week's resolution...

2007-11-24T21:46:00.001-08:00

Not checking it for a week...
so help me God

untitled

2007-11-23T12:59:00.000-08:00

my heart is beating soooooooo fast
its not excitement. its fear
and guilt
wondering why things are the way they are
and wishing that I didn't know -
what i know that has caused me to wonder why

am i your ...
what-you-come-back-to-when

-you-feel-like?

i have seen what i shouldn't
been where i wouldn't
if it wasn't for this...

So I'll ask you today
and tomorrow
i'll ask you till you answer because
i want to know, still
why?

ThAnkFuL

2007-11-23T06:33:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving...
Should be everyday, every moment, and second of our lives
Should be in our hearts, minds, systems
Should be intertwined in our existence

I am ALWAYS thankful
for my life, experiences, joys, pains
People - who have in some way or form, taught me
I am thankful for my inner being
The Holy Spirit that lives within me

I am thankful for the ability to fall and rise again
I am thankful for chocolate - cake, flavored bars, cookies
I am thankful for taco bell, starbucks, my aunt's pepper soup
I am thankful for my mommy's Oha, and EVERYTHING that she cooks

I am thankful for the love of God that surpasses ALL
I am thankful for my Daddy and Mommy
My Pastors....

I am thankful to God, for God
His awesome mercy when I'm sooo not worthy
so not worthy, he still shows mercy. Mercy

I am thankful for you that reads my blog...
Thankfulness and genuine gratitude do something for the system.. its almost unbelievable, but it works. Lord, please help me to ALWAYS be thankful

diSeAsE

2007-11-21T07:56:00.000-08:00

she doesn't want to
but she almost can't help it
she can help it
she wants to help it
she doesn't know how
help her.

it was a scratch
she hid it
it got infected
became a boil --
bubbling with pus, mucus
it burst, it healed
not completely...

you poked at it
kept poking at it
it opened again
she tried to hide it
you caught her, stopped her
its sore, almost bleeding
shes fighting it
it pains. seriously. sometimes
help her

"Someday, we're gonna get soo highhhhh"

2007-11-16T06:17:00.000-08:00

My apologies guys.... Theres sooo much I'm supposed to blog about but I've been SOOOO busy reading my prize, hehehehehehehe..... "Bimby's Book Series", heheeheheh... syke nah, I'm saving it for the weekend, lol... nwayzzz... I had to share this with YOU all...

Who remembers Lighthouse Family? Chris reminded me of them yesterday and I'm sooooo glad he did!!!!! I grew up listenin to these pple widdout even knowing who they were.... I have to share the videos I remember... Chris sent me the link! Thank You much Chris!!!! I'm soooo happy.

Here are the links -- its "High" and "Free"
http://youtube.com/watch?v=59LnsrWkyFM&feature=related
http://youtube.com/watch?v=WYAeGh8UnrU&feature=related

U know how it feels to find something that reminds you of your childhood -- on the way to school when I knew I hadn't done my homework.... I'll hear on the radio "I wish I knew how it would feel to be" or "someday we're gonna get sooo highhhhhh" I WANT THE CD!!!!

Okay, Have a save weekend guys and a wonderful thanksgiving! God bless you all!

ShiLoH 2007!!

2007-11-08T06:30:00.000-08:00

Mehn, we thank God oh...

Day 1 - We destroyed "labels" and asked God to Enthrone Our Esther and Dethrone our Haaman (deep prayer by the way)

Day 2 - We asked the Holy Spirit to deal with problem supervisors @ home and abroad; then we asked the Holy Ghost __ to break every chain that is binding

Day 3 - Wonder what God has in store... I'm excited and YOU shud be too....

Come find out at House of Praise, 6101 Moravia Road, Baltimore MD 21206

God bless you as you come!!

...

2007-11-05T06:21:00.000-08:00

KeEp Ur HeAd Up,

A sMiLe On Ur FaCe &

A sOnG oF pRaIsE iN uR hEaRt...

I'm listening to P2's new album.. very nice, thanks Chris Akinwale Olley

I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THE LORD SOOOOOO MUCH!!!

JESUS, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE YOU!
LOVE YOU!
LOVE YOU!!!

WAAYYYYYYYYYYY more than I can express!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE JESUS!!
I LOVE JESUS!!
I LOVE JESUS!!!!
I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!
I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!!!
I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!!!!
I LOOOOVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEE JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a LoVeLy NoVeMbEr...

2007-10-31T21:55:00.000-07:00

is what I wish you all

Happy Days, Warm Days, Joyful Days
and smiles to fill your every day!!

God bless you all, always!!

...

2007-10-31T08:34:00.000-07:00

... alls well that ends well

the GIFT of a man...

2007-10-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

See many times, you and I get caught up with -

Wishing we had this and
Wanting to do this or
Be that

Only because

They have, She does or He is

I have decided that

My gift will make room for me
Just as the Bible says...

______________________________

You know my conclusion as to why I can get jealous sometimes?
Simple. (I'm sooooo working on it)

1. I may not love myself enough. See, when you love urself and God wayyyy beyond anything, you will love others too. Now what does loving others have to with anything?
Love conquers ALL. If I love you, I won't even think of myself when you have something that could make me jealous... make sense?

2. My flesh is not totally dead yet. Flesh = Sin, jealousy is a sin... Just like sometimes situations or people make you lie, same thing for jealousy.
For instance, Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like someone just shoves stuff in your face, knowingly or not? As in... you could swear the person was doing it intentionally. For example again... lol,

Two weeks ago
A: Wow, I'm getting old oh and I'm not even married... I need help
B: Eyah.. don't worry, God's time is the best. What is Fred saying now?
A: Fred? mehn, don't mind him oh, he's still taking his time

On Thursday
B: (to A, gesticulating and all) Oh my Gosh!!! A, Philip proposed!!!! Like geezzz, I was sooo freaking out when he got on my knees.. BAM look at my diamond!!!!! It shines!!! I love Philip so much, he's like the perfect guy... after only 3 mnths, he proposed... wow! I'm so happy
A: Wow, i'm happy for you too oh
B: Yes, thanks and we're flying to Paris for a small wedding so you can't even come... chai, but there'll be a small get together when we come back
A: Thats nice
B: I'm soooo happy and to think i'm just 22... God is soo good, wow... when i look at how many of my mates, mehn bla bla bla (voice trailing off.....)

If your flesh is dead in this situation, TRUST ME you wudn't even think about it to feel pity on urself...

I'll be back

...and she thought i was bee.essing

2007-10-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

On the bus ride to work this morning (an hour late.. need to work on my schedule), I began to reminisce on my "humble beginnings" with going to university, interacting with all the different people and with the male folk... I was evaluating my years... My 16th year - wonderful year, innocent naive freshman, wonderful world. I'm grown, I love meeting people, asking questions, I act, I sing, I get INVOLVED... My 17th year - wonderful year, a bit challenging cos. my lil' secret (age) is out of the box.. need to fight for respect not to be seen as immature, I have an on campus job, I'm extremely focused on school.... My 18th year - WOW!!! I opened my first bank account... I'm happy 2 be LEGAL! My 19th year... hmmmm, why do I call it my worst year? My 20th year, I graduate... I'm soooooo GROWN now... still getting there, becoming the person God wants me to be... Now 21, a 2nd yr. MBA student... I'm grateful.

Now my 16th year was NOT widdout drama... me being me, Its VERY easy for me to make friends.. I became friends with this young lady who was a couple years older than me, she nearly convinced me that I was "young and stupid" of course there was a boy invloved...

I had this friend or should I say course mate from 9ja, we met again in yankee and of course, became realy friendly, normal toasting stuvs... I liked the guy but I sooooo wasn't and I'm still not into the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing widdout the goal and focus being marriage, so this guy is my brother now... and I love him so much, as a matter of fact, I've been adopted into his family - back 2 d story... so this my "mature friend" thought I was head over heels in love with the guy and was trying 2 hide my feelings for who knows what reason...
It didn't change the fact that I would still go out of my way to do things that I will go out of my way to do... It made me laugh (on the bus 2day) to think how funny it was that this chick nearly gave me an uneraseable complex.. Thank God for deliverance!!

Then I remember how I used 2 react in anger and let the anger take the best part of me and not even feel bad about it... THANK GOD FOR DELIVERANCE OH!!! Mehn, sometimes we REALLY need 2 look back on how far God has brought us, not just financially but in every aspect of life! I can proudly say, that He is molding me, shaping me to become a better person everyday. Thank You Jesus!!!!! Wow... as i write i remember more... If i continue I wudn't get any work done so... I'll stop here with the reminiscing and tell you all my dream last nite... hehehehee

So I dreamt that Omulu was sleeping in the parlor, I think it was night and the sliding balcony door was open to let the cool breeze in... I think i was there with her... And there was a sudden downpour of rain! SERIOUS RAIN... she had washed her clothes and they were spread / hung on hangers outside... while omulu was heavily asleep, i watched as the rain fell and i was too lazy to stand up and shut the door until an avalanche of rain poured into the house.. i quickly got up and went to shut the door, then I noticed that the wind was blowing our clothes away and I began contemplating whether to remove the ones that hadn't been blown away....
Suddenly another heavy wind came by so I rushed to rescue the rest of the clothes... but I realy wnated 2 go downstairs and get the rest.. I was worried that they'll become mixed with mud and some of them were white... I also was concerned that my umbrella will be blown away in the wind so i didn't go outside.. i decided I'll go when the rain stops and then she can soak up the whites again...
Then I woke up to a COLD morning... Its cold 2day in Bmore.... I wonder what my dream means... can't wait 2 tak 2 my mommy!!!

Have a GREAT weekend guys!!! though 2day isn't Friday.....

Nwando the dreamer...

2007-10-04T07:31:00.000-07:00

Thats what I'm about to become for reals... I had another dream last night.
I can't remember it in details cos. I woke up IMMEDIATELY and prayed SERIOUSLY... Then I slept and had another dream.. lol, maybe an effect of what I watched last night before I slept and what I talked about too.

So on TBN, they were showing this program - "The Lazarus Phenomenon". You know the story of the beggar called Lazarus (in the Bible) he used to beg on the street , by a rich man's house and dogs would come and lick up his wounds. The rich man never helped him.
One day Lazarus died and Abraham took him to heaven, of course he was comfortable no more pain and sorrow. The rich man also died and unfortunately went to hell. In hades, he looked and saw Father Abraham and Lazarus in heaven so he begged Lazarus to give him some water cos. he was tormented in the flames. Father Abraham said it was not possible. The rich man also begged that they send someone to his family to warn them of the torment in hell, but that request was also turned down.

The premise of this show was to indeed prove that Halluciantions and Imaginations and Dreams were very different from "near death experiences"

This show, showcased people that had died and come back to life. One of them was a Nigerian Igbo man. He was a Pastor, a Christain.
He was interviewed along with members of his family, the morgue owners, and church people. His story paraphrased:
On wednesday, he had a quarrel with his wife and the wife slapped him. (Now we all know the pride of a man, moreso of an African man) Anyway, she begged for forgiveness and he ignored her. He was going out on Friday, got in a motor accident and died (He showed a copy of his death certificate, signatures and all).

In the spirit realm, he met up with an angel (I started watching late so I dunno what happened before) and the angel took him to hell and told him that thats where his supposed to be. He was alarmed, crying he said how could it be? he's a Child of God and bla bla. The angel reminded him that when he was in the ambulance he was begging God to forgive him of all his sins when he had refused to forgive his wife. The Igbo man said that he knew that nothing could have stopped the Lord from sending him to the terrible lake of fire. He said it was INDEED TERRIBLE! While he was there, thousands of people were being thrown into. He said, it IS A VERY VERY VERY VERY AWFUL AND TERRIBLE PLACE. The angel said he was going to be sent back to the world, as tha last warning for people to repent and avoid the lake of fire.

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Meanwhile on earth, he had been sent to the morgue. But his wife wanted his body back in Lagos in the church cos. she believed he will come back to life. Her father inlaw refused. In the morgue at Onitsha, the owners wanted the body out because "strange things" were happening. According to the guy interiewed, "its a dangerous job" he said singing was coming our of the dead guy's room and he wasn't comfortable with the body being there anymore.

The family was contacted and the wife came immediately. There was a Reinhard Boonke Revival going on at the time, the wife decided to go there cos. she believed he husband will be revived if Reinhard prayed for him. They couldn't get in to see the man of God, she was pushed and shoved eventually they had to go to the back of the church.
There, they took him out of the coffin and started praying for him, it was a lot of people, while they were praying, he started breathing but his body was still stiff, then he jumped up.

The man (Daniel) didn't know what was going on, it seemed to him like just a few minutes he had been gone, but he had actually been gone for 3 DAYS!

I'm asking myself and YOU, do You care where you go when you die?

...

2007-09-28T21:30:00.000-07:00

"It won't end in the way that you feel,
Christ will come like a thief in the night"

Excerpt from Jeremiah Gyang's - "It Won't End"

Today's OPEN HEAVENS

2007-09-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

Thats my daily devotional... Heres what I read dis morning --

TOPIC - FIRST RESURRECTION SAINTS
Memorize: "Blessed and holy is he that hath part in the first resurrection: on such the second death hath no power, but they shall be priests of God and of Christ, and shall reign with Him a thousand years" (Revelation 20:6).

READ: Revelation 20:5-7

Many Christians have asked at one time or another if every born again Christian will go to heaven. Those who believe in the doctrine of eternal security - that is, once saved forever saved, would say, "Yes" to this question. But when we look into the Bible, we will see certain stringent conditions that we must satisy if we must go to heaven. They include: Obtaining a genuine born-again experience, living a holy life and being without blemish, spots or wrinkles. These are tough conditions because Jesus Christ is holy, perfectly holy. He is the head, while born-again Christians (the Church) are the body. The head is about to be joined to the body so that there can be a complete form. For there to be a flawless blend of head and body, the body should be as holy as the head, hence Jesus Christ said in Matthew 5:48: "Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect".

All born again Christians who satisy these conditions will go during the rapture - Christ's second advent. The Bible calls this activity the "First Resurrection". According to our reading, those who take part in this "First Resurrection" will be married to Jesus in the air and will NEVER be sent to the lake of fire (which is the second death). They will reign with Jesus for 1000 years on earth during the millenial reign.

But after the rapture, there will be lots of born-again Christians who failed to meet with heaven's requirements, those left behind.
Churches will still be full then. Several pastors who are left behind will preach while several evangelists who were left behind will organize crusades, All born-again Christains who were left behind will now have to contend with the mark of the Anti-Christ. That will be second round. They will now have to stand for Jesus, endure the worst torment ever and resist the mark of the anti-christ. In the process, they will be killed as they will have to pay for their salvation with their own blood.
As they are martyred, they will finally end up in Heaven as the Tribulation saints, but will not be a part of the bride of Christ. I shall not be a tribulation saint. It shall not be easy to serve God onearth during the period of the anti-christ. Now you are free to worship Christ yet you are complaining. How easy will it be for you to serve Him during the Great Tribulation when it will become a crime to do so?

Strive now to be part of the First Resurrection Saints!

ACTION POINT: Ask God to uproot anything capable of hindering your qualifying for the rapture. Ask the Holy Spirit to have His way in your life.

Doesn't this kinda explain my dream a little... I'm thankful for this passage I read today.. I'll be back for more. REMAIN RAPTURABLE!

The Dream...AGAIN

2007-09-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

There's this dream I've had so many times.... in different variations. Sometimes I wake up scared, today is different.

I dreamt that I was at some kind of dinner thingie; me and C.T (sat 2gether) and some other people sha, Nigerians and others. After a while, of sitting down and eating (i dunno if we were eating I know we were seating on some long tables, dinner party style); there was like a break and every one stood up to mix, mingle, use the bathroom, whatever.

I did too and I was by the passage way talking to G.Fem about some business, next thing, this light skinned, handsome man walks past me staring. I don't know who he is but there is a familiarity, an eeriness almost. His eyes are like greenish or sth, sha not black. I hide my face and then it clicks for some STRANGE reason that the guy is the anti-Christ.

I rush to my table and pick my bag... I look around for C.T and he's no where 2 be found. Instinctively, I know that the anti-christ has come to make pple take the mark. So I run right out of the place, G-Fem chases me and I tell him my new discovery, he follows me and we run 2gther but I'm waaayyyyy ahead of him.

As we exit the building, we see all these SWAT team pple, police cars... and everything is sooo eerie! They r looking at us weird and I'm racing down the street, which is like downhill. We run into a somewhat residential area, the streets are totally empty and dark, the SWAT team pple r following us now - lights, dogs, men on bikes, its not noisy at all but i know they are following us.

I run into a more residential street and start jumping over fences and clothes lines, I think I'm trying 2 find my house in the dream... G.Fem is still kinda far. Then I hide in a corner, there is a dog and a cat outside watching me hiding. I see the bright flash light of one of the searchers, he misses me and I don't know what happens next....

I think I find my way into the house and pack some things, I don't know but I definitely wasn't caught...

What bothers me about this dream is - why was I even there when the anti-christ came? Why was he looking at me like that? Why didn't d dream start when rapture took place?
I've prayed hard, but I'm still scared. I don't want to miss heaven, I don't want to suffer in eternal damnation, moreso I don't want to suffer to preserve myself from taking any mark. I want to be found rapturable when Jesus comes...

God please, please please please please please please please Oh Lord, remove from my life, every sin, every thing that will not allow me to make heaven. Lord, I want to ascend to heaven when You come like a thief in the night. Please Lord, don't let me suffer now on earth and still not make heaven!!! Please God!

People, please understand the gravity of this, a time will come after the righteous pple (I will be one of them in Jesus name) are gone. During this time, a wicked man will rise up and rule the whole world... Notice how the world is becoming smaller, u can know everyone, reach everyone with phones, fcbk, myspace... It is possible that one man can physically take over this world. he will be terrible and force pple to take the mark of the beast (with this mark you are surely going to hell when the anti-christ's reign is over) But it will be REALLY tough for pple who refuse to take this mark, thats why I want to go when the trumpet sounds... God please HELP me!!!

I have 2 come back with Bible references so u guys know its NO joke at all, I'm just petrified....

I WANT TO MAKE HEAVEN! When d trumpet sounds...

G.O.S.H

2007-09-15T05:47:00.000-07:00

Gosh... I don't know mehn,

I had an excellent time in Orlando, didn't make it 2 d Holy Land but we did get 2 Disney World Resort; specifically House of Blues.

I dunno mehn, It was okay, weird.... Big Tigger was MCing, Shaq was there, Collins Metu was taking pictures... And God only knows which other "stars" were present.

I shouldn't have gone.

Many people may not see this as a big deal and probably think I'm fanatical but I REALLY feel weird... I've been trying to do only things that glorify God and I'm wondering how He felt by my presence at the House of Blues... I just feel it wasn't the best way to say thank you for all His mercies...

Lord, please forgive me! I reject the accuser of the brethren in Jesus Name.

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And...
I'm confused again... I'm worried, I think. I can't talk about it now because I really should be MORE focused on other things (u probably have an idea what this new issue might be).
Arrrrggggghhhhh!!

I'm about to call Omulu and Adia, I can talk 2 them, they can listen, pray with me and give me good advice.. Thank God for sisters!

In Orlando..

2007-09-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

It reminds me of Lagos, its hot indeed. I'm grateful because God is merciful.
I forgot my suit.

He called me, he knows what he's been doing... he knows its wrong, he's probably going to read this... he's going to change and try to stop... thats important.

He text me, yesterday and today... weird I know....
He had a LOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGG conversation with someone, I really want to know the outcome... will I? I doubt it.
He's thinking about what the next few months have to offer..... what does that mean? Am I s'posed 2 be worried, not if I'm trying to make this MBA work....

I love God so much... my love for Him has given me this unexplainable confidence that everything will be just fine! I'm not shaken about ANYTHING! Though sometimes a glance at others may intimidate me, I shake it off and beg God for forgiveness. I am truly blessed. I know

He just text me again...

bLoWn... ...aLmOsT

2007-09-09T19:01:00.000-07:00

It all began about 2 years or 3 years ago....

A phone call, phone calls, reflections, questions, company, disappointment...
Oh... family, church, friends then disappointment

Not mine, yours... Its sad cos. I have a feeling you're trying to rub it in, are you?
Thats REAL mature...

I know, I know I can be soooooooo clandestine & elusive sometimes.... I don't even know how to react to this, I have 2 be sure first what exactly is going on, not like I'll spend sleepless nights trying to figure it out - NOPE! I'll wait till you're tired of errrrrrr... beating about the bush and acting confused.

"I still don't want it. you. them... Not the way you think, Not at all... Don't make it worse for yourself. Really. Stop flashing your green light, I'm not interested.
Here's what you're doing: you're "innocently" doing "these things", then saying something else. Quite unfortunately, you're pulling my Daddy into it. You seem REALLLLLLLY confused, when I act normal, you act like I'm acting abnormal reminding me of the other things you're saying, not the things you're doing. Am I making sense?"
Do you have something to say to me? If you do frikking spill it out! I have a very good mind of telling you what I really want to, but I don't want to hurt your feelings.... again.

So, I'm venting because of ALLLL the B.S you've shoved in my face in form of your "good intentions" I'M TIRED OF YOUR SO CALLED GOOD INTENTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, I have made some decisions... very important, maybe rash decisions.... unfortunately against you...

Maybe I'm being dramatic, maybe its hard to believe the "innocence" of your gestures considering they began after the initial accost... Now you've got my family involved... you know, its not normal for them (other contenders are VERY familiar with the end point of over familiarity - its never an issue, because they know how far they should go. Do you?)
Anyway, its not normal for them, hence its hard for me to explain to them and now to myself. I should congratulate you though, the buried questions from '04 or '05 have reared their ugly heads a couple of times this year... thanks buddie, you've done it again....

One of my decisions is I'm NOT going to let you intimidate me, confuse me or make me ask myself questions... you don't deserve that time of day! U don't. U don't. U don't!!!!

(Deep breathe... Have a wonderful week guys!)

Relief.. or?

2007-08-25T18:19:00.000-07:00

So now I'm not like sooo entirely glad about this but its kind of a relief...

Not because I'm only thinking about myself cos then I'll seem like one of those greedy Nigerians who have embezzled Nigerian money in dollars BUT
Because I was very afraid of how this process will actually take place.. how detrimental it may be and how many people may suffer as a result of not so much as the implementation of this new plan but will suffer because of lack of education -- illiteracy maybe... they may not understand the plan...
Okay, I don't know if i'm making too much sense... but I was afraid... then mad cos I thought it was a bad idea

Much later, I discussed with some very smart & more experienced Nigerians including my mommy and the economics of it all made sense but the implementation part was SUSPECT! It seemed VERY VERY FAR REACHING, almost impossible!! It took me (an intelligent MBA student) days of pondering and research to see some positive sense in it talk less of what / how much it will take an illiterate pepper seller...

So you see, even though I feel bad that this has been stopped (temporarily I think), I'm also relieved; now Nigerians have time to make any preparations if necessary and maybe even reconstruct their thinking and reset their minds given full explanation of Soludo's proposal.

Please visit a Nigerian News website for more info. on this... Apparently, Soludo's proposal has been torpedoed because he did not consult the President before making the announcement... (rumour has it that he was called to order by Northerners)

Politics in Nigeria WILL change... SOON!
Obviously, someone is trying to protect something by protesting this supposedly good plan...

HAVE A BLESSED WEEK GUYS!

SOOOOO FrIkKiNg IrRiTaTeD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-20T16:37:00.000-07:00

ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I'm soooooooooooooo MAD!!!!!!! What d hell??!!!!! I'm feel like tightening someone's throat till their tongue comes out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay... that scene is gross

BUT still.............

WHYYYYYY??? WHHHYYYYYY??? Do Nigerians in power always come up with ways to make me sooooo mad!!! They keep tempting me 2 pray bad prayer 4 them!!

Please oh!!! has anyone else heard about this new plan to "Dollarize our Naira"?

Does it even make sense? How can Soludo propose to change the naira so ONE DOLLAR equals ONE NAIRA, TWENTY FIVE KOBO as in $1.00 = N1.25!!!?????

RIDICULOUS I tell u! I am appalled! When I first heard it, I thought it was a joke! Now I'm reading it.... U should read it too, maybe I'm too riled up to see the economic benefit.

Okay, basically what they're saying is they are removing two zeros from our money so that N50,000 becomes N500, as in an item that costs N50,000 will now cost N500... same value, same item... basically N50,000 is the new N500!
I'm upset because I don't think it makes too much sense too me, its all good.

You could google it to find more news, but here are some links:
http://www.thisdayonline.com/nview.php?id=86830

RaMbLiNgS...

2007-08-11T14:45:00.000-07:00

"Someone once told me that girls like me end up with jerks."

A sociology / psychology major, he went on to explain the mechanics of his statement, shedding light on case scenarios, psychological theories and real life statistics. I thought he was trying to hit on me.

Lately or since 'this' , its been one criticism or another, one "sign" or another. I'm NOT confused or worried, I'm just wondering if I'm supposed to be worried.... feel me?
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"She doesn't know why but she thinks he's the one" LAWL

Just because a girl of marriageable age is totally inexperienced with relationships doesn't mean she is doomed, or does it?
There are sooo many common sense things, the problem is some of them just don't make sense anymore. Like this posting...

I don't know jare...

How is it possible that there are soooooooooo MANY glaring signs -
PULL OUT!!! PULL OUT!!!!
Yet, yours truly remains strangely obstinate, like there's sth to hold on to.... is there really?
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"My friend once told me that God cannot change man's will"

True or False?
"What if your will is harmful to you", I asked.
My friend said, "God will put you in a position that'll force you to change or will or put situations around you that'll make you change your will, and you must change it if you are wise"

I have to pray against the Spirit of stubbornness...

Okay people, its been REAL....

GrAtEfUl!

2007-08-09T09:26:00.000-07:00

I have heard stories, read stories about people, places, events. Sad, Eventful, Dramatic
And I am grateful for MY story, my life, the legacy in the works that I will leave behind for generations to come.
I am grateful for my sense of self, life, pride, generosity
I am grateful for my current level of spirituality, for the path I have chosen to take
I am grateful for my Father, my Mother, My sisters - Omulu & Adia, My brother - theloveofmylife
I am grateful for the many Aunties and Uncles that have affected me:
- Aunty Uju, Aunty Enu, My Godfather Barrister Nnamdi, etc, etc
I am very grateful for Pastor Alawode, Pastor Adekoya, Pastor Bola, Pastor Oyewole, Pastor Jackson, Sis. Fash, etc, etc

I am ultimately grateful to God for placing me at this place I am now. And Lord please help me not to disappoint you in anyway at all.
Lord please be in my eyes and in my seeing
In my ears and in my hearing
Be in my head and in my thinking
In my mouth and in my speaking
Lord please be at my end and at my beginning, AMEN!

Errrrrrrr.....

2007-08-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

OYM – So you’re Nigerian?

dScribe – Yes Sir

OYM – Which part of Nigeria are you from?

dScribe – I’m Igbo from Anambra State

OYM – Oh, I’ve been there…

OYM’s friend – ah Onisha (with Yoruba accent)

dScribe – That’s actually my town

OYM – It’s a terrible place (turns to friend starts speaking Yoruba, then turns back to me) Igbo people are very greedy, they can do anything for money, even kills for money (gesticulating)

dScribe – really? That hasn’t been my personal experience though. I lived in Onitsha for six years, its quite dirty though but all the Igbos I know are pretty generous and open. My father is not greedy…

OYM – (turns to friend and they’re speaking Yoruba, my phone rings, I pick up, talk briefly and hang up then I turn back to them)

dScribe – Yes? You were saying?

OYM – I was just telling my friend here, that you are not a true Igbo

dScribe – (at this point I’m boiling) really?

OYM – Yezz, you can’t be a true Igbo

dScribe - And why is that? I lived there 6 years, speak my language well, eat my food, go home every Christmas. How am I not truly Igbo?

OYM – Because a true Igbo will take offense to my statement

dScribe – No sir, I’m very open-minded. Everyone has views about everyone, as Christians we shouldn’t take it to heart. Do you know what they say about Yoruba’s, Sir?

OYM – What do they say, is it not mgba ti gba ti?

dScribe – No sir, they say you are all shady, cowards, diabolical, pretentious, smile in the face – kill in the back, the cause of the fatality in the Biafran war.

OYM – (staring at me stupidly in stupor)

dScribe – Yes sir, but you see the Igbos are very bitter about the current state of affairs in the Igbo communities at large. I’m currently reading Biafran books by Yoruba leaders to educate myself and educate others in the long run.

OYM – (goes into a historical chatter about the war, then tells me he knows I’ll be a great leader, we exchange cards…)

MY COMMENTS

I am a strong believer that every problem has a root cause. To the offender the cause is never a big deal; to the offended the grievance is indeed grievous and sometimes absolutely unforgivable. For instance, Patricia is angry with Steve because he took her chips without asking. Steve doesn’t think it’s a big deal because he planned on telling her anyway, she’s angrier about his indifference and lack of remorse, he maintains its bygones, besides its not that serious.

Patricia is very sensitive and almost petty, she stops talking to Steven anymore, she feels she’s being taken for granted and disrespected.

I wish the tribal issue in Nigeria was that simple, or better still – nonexistent…

QUICK QUESTION: More members of his family love his ex, if Efe wasn't in the picture, there's a probability that his ex and him will get back together... What should Efe do?

BE BLESSED Y'ALL!

AUGUST 1ST

2007-08-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

Here's to wishing EVERYONE of you a BLESSED MONTH!

I just know its going to be blessed for everyone of us. Today, I read that God's power is MADE PERFECT in weakness. Also that Eagles don't run away from a storm, they face the storm and allow the wind to make them soar high! Unlike other birds that run to hide when there's a storm.

I encourage all of us to be like the Eagle this month and face every storm with bravery, God's power and the faith that the Lord has filled us with... We CAN conquer all forms of difficulty with a positive attitude, prayer and praise!!

Have a WONDERFUL August, and let your August visitor bring loads of Goodies, Amin!!!!

TeTaNuS sHoT...

2007-07-31T19:59:00.000-07:00

My people!!
How far now? How is everyone's week going?? I hope its great...mine is too

Errrrrrr, yup! Great, I said despite....
Going to the doctor's earlier today.

I've been in Yankee for five years and I never even smelt a hospital up until this year...
First my friend's mother had to sleep in the hospital for a day and we went to see her....

Guys, remember some postings down, when I told u I stepped on a nail? I thought that after the traditional applications stuvs, it will all be over... little did I know
So my foot kept hurting: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday - I got mad and prophesied to the leg, Thursday - I forgot I had an injury till late at night, then I looked down and saw the swelling with yellow stuff in it (ewwwwwwww!! I know) Was a bit alarmed so I called my Big sis.... big mistake!!
This chick started going off with all the dreaded threats. You know how older sisters are, I Love her very much though.... but she was talking about how I need 2 go 2 d hospital or else she'll make a call to Nigeria (I dread health talks from my mother and father.... the fear, the guilt and the final judgment)

Nway, i said i'd go... yeah right!!! As I hate hospitals, doctors, medicine...

Friday - my pops calls me at 7a.m - Here comes the lecture!! Ah Ahn!!! for like 5 - 10minutes, I love being doted on but oh boy come talk say I fit die! Then I became depressed and a bit upset, I'm like "so this people really think that threatening me and filling me with fear will make me go 2 d hospital, story!!"
Then my mother calls when the day really breaks, she's d nice one... at first. Did i say nice? I meant calm but she subtly put a large amount of pressure on me mehn, I no go lie. I was quiet all day.

Cut the long story a lil' bit short
-After she arrives I promise I'll go.... errrmmmm, excuse was I need a ride. She almost beat me yesterday for not going ah!!! Then I finally went 2day...

A.J and Neef went with me, before we got there YinkzPerricus was telling me an "easier" way to solve my problem. Catch a Cockroach, put it on the area and plaster it... hmmmmm. Nway, we were waiting for 3hours plus!!! Imagine!! We had a lovely conversation though, mainly re: Half a Yellow Sun, (will blog about this on a day I'm feeling Biafran) Just when I was delightedly about to cancel, reason: "I have to go back to work"

The doctor (my pop's friend) said they were ready 4 me. Ahn!! They INJECTED ME!!! Blogville, ME!!! A WHOLE ME!!!!! On my upper left arm, the doc had the nerve to smile and laugh!
I will have to do a conversational posting of the experience, since I've completely blabbed and rigmaroled on this one... Point is,
I have gotten my TETANUS shot.... have u gotten yours???
Lol, have a great night people and Stay Connected to God!!!!!
Peace, one love, something dey definitely happen!

HaRaJuKu StYlE...

2007-07-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

Wish I had pictures to show y'all... HARAJUKU STYLE brought to you by Kelz and Neef was OFF THE CHAIN if you ask me!!

At the end of it, I thought I was going to cry!! She actually pulled it off. It was a huge success in that It actually held and people actually showed up and the models actually modeled and the dj was actually off the hook and people actually enjoyed the night.

Who would have thought? After ALL the hassles, doubt, harsh talk, silent beef, more doubt... who would have thought that this would be possible.
I learnt a HUGE lesson tonight, if you are determined to do something, with the right kind of support from God and whoever He sends, you CAN do it!!

Lets look at it this OTHER way: Young Diva's (Neef, but I love to call her Seun) first project was well, a first project like any other first project - lots of hitches, lil' bit of in-house disorganization, financial mishaps,etc etc... Depending on the set measurement of success, maybe even conviction of negative variation.
But i must commend my young friend because many just think of ideas but never implement them for fear of failure... or whatever else

Now to things that were done but could be done better next time (I truly learnt A LOT tonight)
- Firstly, draw up a tentative budget, including space for miscellaneous charges. Make sure your budget covers as much as possible and is feasible. Then, draw up capital and have cash in hand before proceeding.
- Secondly, be on the same page as your co-organizer ALWAYS!!
Preferably organize face to face meetings to ensure full clarity and do not implement changes without conferencing with your co-organizer.
- Thirdly, delegate ALL responsibilities beforehand and always have a back-up plan. Arrange for dedicated go-fers and reliable partners.
- Fourthly, to avoid an estranged situation, always maintain a positive attitude.
- Fifthly, if you try a certain tactic and the results are not favorable, try something else.
- Sixthly, Do not trust anyone entirely, make alternative arrangement. Strive for the best and don't totally expect the best from everyone.
- Lastly, smile, and be happy.

My dearest girl, I know you're going to read this... This is a BEAUTIFUL start for you and I know you are on to much GREATER THINGS... I can see it in your biography already...
" Her first production was Harajuku Stlye in July, 2007. This lovely lady has shattered the bars of fashion, modeling and fashion, she is enterprising, ambitious, focused, dedicated, aggressive, ............."

I'm off the sleep... gnite bville!

The LOVE OF MY LIFE!!

2007-07-28T15:35:00.000-07:00

(with radio presenter voice) Now presenting to you fellow members of blogville....

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!

My mommy just arrived with my lil' brother aka the love of my life!!!
The boy is sooo tall and handsome now, BUT he's skinny as i-dunno-what. I don't know if I looked that skinny when I went 2 boarding school but shoo, the boy lost mad weight!!! I hope he gains it ALL back before he goes back.

I've missed the lil' homie so mush mehn, we've got a lot of catching up to do on school boys... and girls (hehehehe) and the razz folk in our area. He insists on hanging his DSLite round his neck (a constant reminder that the only games i ever purchased for him are errmmm... more than 6 months old, lol)

My mother. GOD WILL BLESS HER FOREVER!!!!!! Gosh!!! I'm sure Adia and Omulu will concure mehn, dt lady is HAWT Fire!!! Apart from the fact that shes looking really good these days, she purchased MADDDDD stuff for us mehn as in not one, not two, not three but FIVE ankara dresses for just me oh, plus a lil' shirt dress and some jazzy blouse from my designer uncle. My sisters got maddd stuff too of course.

Then enter the food section... Okay no suya but this lady had the fried goat meat going, fried snails, kilishi, kokoro, GALA, my indomie (thats a constant), some Togolese snack, some hausa soft spicy groundnut thing (really can't remember what its called), akihausa (yes!!! who wuda thot?... brings back memories from Federal), FunTime Coconut chips, Chocomilo, Milo, stuff for making pepper soup, Papparazzi Magazine for Omulu (theres a pix of Tminx in it), Vicks Lemon Plus and they now have Apple Plus...imagine??? It tastes aiight though, Adia begs to differ, errrmmmm my babadudu (u know that locally made coconut sweet joint? And she made some Oha soup... Gosh I LOVE MY MOMMY!!!

May God continue to bless you for us and continue to put LOADS of money in your hand. You will never lack any good thing. You will NOT spend your money on sickness or death. The Lord will order your steps and place you high above all in Jesus Name, AMEN!!!

I'm sooooo happy!!! I have a busy week ahead of me but I know I'll be fine.
HARAJUKU Style has begun and I'm late but I'm on my way... of course I'll be rocking one of new Ankara outfits (Baltimore is NOT ready for this, lol)

...ooohhh I gatta blog about the guy who makes my clothes in Tejuoso market, lol....
Atta guys!!!

for Bobby...

2007-07-24T21:59:00.000-07:00

I got this off of Katung's pictures... Its d KokoMaster widdout shades, he still covered his eyes with a hat a lil tho'

Enjoy... lol

SiLeNt BoMb stuvs...

2007-07-22T20:26:00.000-07:00

Couple of things I need 2 let blogsville know...
I guess the most pressing is my current predicament...

"the release of intestinal gases through the anus" (now I feel fineboy's pain)

Okay, I really haven't consumed that much food today but my issues started with a can of coke, after church (i usually don't down dark colored sodas) Today was different, ask me why....

Nway, so it was a paddy's birthday yesterday and we all went out 2 eat today. There's no need to give off the names on the guest list, maybe some other time... Nway, before we got 2 Applebees, I was already having silent symptoms of non-toxic release - meaning no odor....
Until I consumed that spinach shrimp salad and a HUGE glass of virgin pina colada (i couldn't drink it all sef)... I must say, the salad was REALLY good it had bacon bits in the vinaigrette dressing... it was quite delicious.

As soon as I was done eating, I felt it... OH NO!! Not in the presence of these 5 PEOPLE!!! Then it slid out silently... still no odor... great!!
Okay so we all got outside and we started Part 2 - the gisting part of the evening, no signs of toxic stuvs (good good, I'm still safe)

All of a sudden after the final goodbye and brief argument on who was going to drive back, it was time to get in the car... the two gentlemen I was with made a quick joke and God knows it wasn't that serious BUT I made it a mini-big deal out of it ONLY BECAUSE I felt it AGAIN!!!

This one felt like a BIG one... there was no way I was getting in the car until I release...
Then I did.... it was peaceful, slight sound and MEGA TERRIBLE odor, lemme not go too deeply into it, but I lingered a little, then finally got it the car...

OH NOOOOOO!!! I smelt something and no one was speaking, I thought it was my silent bomb.... but we already left the parking lot!! Then I remembered someone had taken their food out cos. they couldn't eat it all, thats the smell I perceived!! Relief....
My rep is safe until one of them reads this....

Okay cos I'm in the mood, I gatta tell u guys what happened 2 me on Saturday!!!!
See my church had our annual picnic to honor 2007 Graduates!! My sister was one of them, thank you thank you MBA stuvs!!!! Shout Out 2 Omulu!!! I was SOOOOO proud of her!! Sorry, I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of her!!! Yeah, EAT UR HEARTS OUT HATERS!!!!

Nway, so the picnic was fun, I busied myself with my lil' baby she's almost 2 years old. She's SUCH a sweetie!!! (Okay she's not mine mine but I love her sooo much, she's my choir director's baby) So, I gallivanted a lil', ate around a lil' then I decided 2 rest a lil'.
While resting, a church elder asked me to get something... Thats when YAWA GASSED!!!! BIG TIME!!

Oh boy, I DID NOT see that nail abi na thumb-tack, that joint went into my side heel so fast and see me tryna form fine babe, I dunno where the tears came from, Some man beside me just pulled it out. I didn't even see the person... that was just the beginning

I took a seat on a nearby bench nursing my leg, by now a mini crowd of concerned church members were around me asking whats up... Next thing, some mommies came and said they need 2 use a knife handle and hit on the spot!! Haba!!! I never see this kin thing b4 oh!!! Okay, I sha let them... It hurt and I managed.... still forming hot babe, mehn I was still wiping tears and swishing my hair to the side as I was sobbing bcos of pain...

Next thing oh, they said they need to perform some stuvs or else the next day I won't be able to walk!! "Ehn??? I must go 2 church 2morrow", I thought to myself.
Nway, one of the mommies came and explained that they will put hot knife and hot oil on the spot, it will pain me now but it will not pain me 2morrow... HOT KNIFE AND HOT OIL ke????
lol, they said it will pain me TO MY BRAIN!!! but its only temporary.... I don't think I understood the full meaning until I saw the smoking knife!!!

See Exorcist moves mehn, I was WAILING and SERIOUSLY STRUGGLING in front of all the fyne brothers and sisters that cared to watch the drama. I don't even know who and who was holding me... THAT JOINT WAS PAINFUL!!!!! Jesus!!!! Mehn, I have never seen this type of thing in my life!!!
After I fought and fought, they said "the knife is cold", IMAGINE??? They went to heat it up for round two with the oil!!! Another one????

See me begging!!! I said no, its okay... I'll be fine... Lai lai, all these nurses and mommies HELD ME DOWN and put the HOT oil... No more ajebutter in this, the tears were just flowing I didn't even bora 2 wipe it, until they finished HA!!! My God!! One of my choir sisters now cleaned it with alcohol and put a band aid on it...
I don't think I can EVER forget that experience in my life!!! Chai!!! Its all good sha, my left foot is healing now, I still afraid to place it fully on the floor cos it still hurts a lil'. I still haven'yt prayed on it, I'll do that tonight...

Meanwhile, Peace Out blogville... I'm expecting my moms and the love of my life this week so I'm soooo excited.

For some reason I've been feeling extremely cynical lately about my recent mortal surroundings, and things have been physically falling into place to further buttress or reinforce my feelings (they're slowly becoming beliefs... as in truths....) Will blog about it later.....

Have a GREAT WEEK blogville!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God will be with you all

My TeStImOnY!!

2007-07-20T20:54:00.001-07:00

There was a time when I used to struggle (concerning certain issues) with the lil' green eyed monster Ugo once blogged about...

It was a terrible period.
I prayed and prayed and prayed for it to go away, it seemed like it never would
Me
Being the ever supportive, guiding, listening light;
All around me failed to see the darkness that was eating from within
Oh, I suffered incredulously
You suffered too,
Only you didn't notice cos the green eyed monster wasn't yours to fight

Finally,
I detached myself
unconsciously first, then mentally, physically
Enough to admit
that this wasn't the me I wanted to be

It was confusing, I tell you...
The time when the monster would rear its ugly head
It was a confusing situation
Because he would force me to question -
the lives of my colleagues, contemporaries
As if we were born on the same day
As if our destinies are to compete
he forced me to place myself on a level so low
A facade of a pedestal of where I ought to be -
emotionally, and financially, and mentally, and socially, and ...

Today, I testify that I'm -
F.R.E.E
Free of the nagging ugly fellow
telling me to weigh, compare, contrast and --
Lapse into a momentary state of "un-nwando-ness"

I am F.R.E.E
because I am basking in contentment
As warm as I want it to be
I know I am in control
Because
I am not fidgeting
Not twisting my fingers or stammering
Not irritated at the sound of his laugh, her squeal
Not dealing with that old be-S

I am F.R.E.E
to stand, scrutinize, love, laugh, suggest
I am F.R.E.E enough to
be considerate, unselfish, genuine, unhateful, true
F.R.E.E enough to be conscious enough to
help you - who needs to hear my Testimony...

...aFtEr 7 DaYs

2007-07-18T06:25:00.000-07:00

After 7 days, I decide to write more about my KoNfUsIon...
After 7 days, a lot has changed
After 7 days, I've been through soul searching, soul searching and resolve
After 7 days of comparison, reflection, maybe regret
After 7 days of admonishment, maybe punishment
After 7 days, I am still KoNfUsEd but S.U.R.E that...
After 7 days, I have one conclusion and I will NOT change it after 7 days

Okay, this is for all the concerned readers of my blog. Lemme start by saying I TRULY appreciate ur nosiness and concern hehehe...

Okay so, I was confused (was I?) about two certain fellas ...both fully MM and professing M (scroll down to see what the code means lol), but both also have certain qualities that could immediately X them from the M equation.
We are talking about spirituality, family background, errrrmmmm maybe physical appearance (including speech, toucheness vs razzness), talents, personal goals, etc etc.

I tackled my momentary confusion by dealing first with what is most importnat to me at this time concerning spending the rest of life with someone (of course I was greatly influenced by the marriage seminar at my church and the experiences I have had in my life so far)...

1. Man must be SPIRITUAL!! As in, its not a joke at all. I want someone who is SPIRITUALLY MATURE I know nobody is perfect but I can't be co-captain of a boat with a captain who leaves all the steering for me, Nope!! No can do!!! I DO NOT want any form of mediocrity regarding this matter and I WILL NOT settle. Its almost like I'm warning myself but I do know that I hate Satan and the devil certainly does not like me. So as much as these two brothers are all that and some more - physically, mentally, financially and so forth, they also GATTA be all that spiritually too. Bible talk say, "Son of Man, know thyself!" Dude must know himself VERY WELL and I must know too!
While I don't know too much about spirituality and my current potentials. I am very willing to find out.

2. All the other things come in second, so while I am not limiting myself to a focused, dedicated, hardworking, u-are-my-everything, Daddy-look-alike (it'll be nice if he had all my pop's good qualities) fella. I am also very wary of mistakes...

So I'm not so confused anymore. I am actually at peace, content and chilling.
I pray for Patience and God's leading as I continue in this valley of MM toasters... I also pray against the spirit of Error in my life and the lives of all of us!! God be with us all!!!! AMEN!!

MM - (if u didn't already figure it out) Marriage Material
M - Marriage

2007-07-07T06:52:00.000-07:00

07.07.07, Just had 2 write smn on this PERFECT day!!!

2007-07-06T16:41:00.000-07:00

Am I not close to that perfect time, that perfect day?
Do I not love the perfect number? Wasn't I born on that perfect day?

We DiD iT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

We are WINNERS!! We are CHAMPIONS!!!!
What a way to start a a fresh half of a new year!!!! its 7.07!!!!

This is becoming my mantra: I'm GRATEFUL!!!!!!!!!
I pray everyone has a blessed month, May God be with you in all you do and order your steps and bring helpers your way, Amen!!!
Uche, u know I couldn't have done this without u!! And Adia and Omulu....God bless YOU!!!!

Have a blessed one and stay connected to the Tree of Life!!!!!!
I Love You all!!!!!! BUT God loves you more!!!!

1 LOVE!!

The GrAnDe FiNaLe...

2007-06-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

Thank YOU!! Thank YOU!!! Thank YOU!! EVERYONE!!
This love has been extremely mind-blowing... I am totally GRATEFUL!!!!

Its finally OVER, well almost... This 1st production of Blogville Idol

Wow, Mimi obviously has great fashion sense and a WHOLE LOT of fans...
I have... well? I'm not sure anymore... This was supposed to be FUN!!!!!

Suddendly, its crunch time, can I handle the pressure???? No one likes my last performance... Dave Chappelle will get a kick outta this "when keepin it real, goes wrong" performance.

I'm keeping my head up tho' Its not over, till its over.... Come 2 think of it, I've had it pretty smooth since the beginning of this competition. This is my 1st and final opposition!!
Thank you dear lovers and haters...

Let the show continue and Let the best woman win!!!! Thanks for all the love mehn, Omulu and Adia and all the "UNSHAKEABLE" fans... I'm incredibly emotional rite now, geez...

Still, VOTE 4 DSCRIBE!!!

For Chicala...

2007-06-26T14:16:00.000-07:00

Heres a link to Banky's myspace page... http://www.myspace.com/banky
He has other REALLY hot songs, I think Ebutemetta is the third or fourth song playing.

Also you can download it free here:
http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=42B9A6A80ECFC56A

Enjoy everyone!!!

VOTE FOR ME!!!

2007-06-25T22:09:00.000-07:00

Hey fellow bloggers!!!

I just listened to Banky's version of the Rhianna song. His is called Ebutemetta. I REALLY like it!!!!
I practiced that Rhianna song oh, chai!!! Nway, its the final five, after this session only two remain... Will I be in the top two???
YES I WILL!!! Only if YOU vote for me!!!!! lol.

But yeah mehn, I'm enjoying dis and I continue to give kudos to PinkPeke Productions for their outstanding stuvs and Ugo also.

Well enjoy my rendition of "ella ella" by clicking on the Blogville Idol Contestant Icon and please VOTE fer moi!!!

Thanks to all my great friends, fans and family that have been ever soooo supportive!!! Thank you sooo mush!!!!
One Love...

SoMe sPeCiAl SuNdAy!!

2007-06-24T14:25:00.000-07:00

My My My...
Today's service was OFF THE CHAIN!!! I attend an R.C.C.G Church around where I live and its a WONDERFUL congregation, we always have excellent men and women of God come to preach (e.g. Rev. Adeboye) and my Pastor - Pastor Dapo Oyewole is the realest, funniest, down to earthest Pastor I have ever seen. He's not afraid to tell the truth...

Today, he preached on the topic: "His Purpose"
The main text was taken from Romans 8 vs. 28, but the focal story was the story of Joseph's plight from Genesis 37 to the end of Chapter 41.

Both evil and good work together for our Purpose, the purpose God has for our lives. Like Gold passes through fire to be refined, God lets us pass through fire so that we can come out purer and finer to achieve our purpose.
Nothing can happen to a child of God without the knowledge of God.
EVERYTHING in your life (failures, mistakes, disappointments, joys, pains, etc etc) is working for your good!

So we need to be determined and refuse to give up.
"Your determination to get to the top will propel you to your success." At times, life is not fair but you must NEVER allow the words of others to bring you or keep you down. Also, don't try to help God (like Sarah did by asking her husband to take Hagar) wait patiently for Him instead.

Annointing Attracts Attacks.
Some people believe that after accepting Jesus, everything in life becomes smooth... False!
The devil tries to kill our dreams through other people. Therefore associate and surround yourselves with only people that'll encourage you. God's plan and purpose for your life WILL DEFINITELY come to pass!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEK PEOPLE!!

Later on, I gatta post my notes from Church on Tuesday. Pastor Anslem Madubuko preached...

Good morning Jesus!!!

2007-06-22T06:03:00.000-07:00

I had a GREAT night's sleep, despite all the things that "should" be bothering me... I'm MEGA GRATEFUL!!!
Okay soo today's post is titled GoodMorning Jesus...

How many times have u woken up in the morning, first thing in the morning, stretched and said Goodmorning Jesus
Sincerely? And said Goodmorning with all your heart and meant it.

See sometimes we get so caught up with coffee, morning email, the person that slept beside us the night b4, running late to work, complaints, e.t.c, e.t.c. And we FORGET to give the most minimal form of thanks to the one who made our waking up possible.

I know, I know some people don't believe in Jesus, in God, the Holy Spirit, in the Lord of Hosts, the Unbreakable breaker, the Unshakeable shaker, the One who loves UNCONDITIONALLY, the One who forgives sins and heals EVERY wound or disease... Eyah, you don't know what you're missin; Well today is not preaching day BUT I have 2 say, God deserves all the praise - look at all the beauty around us, even in all the chaos, He still finds a way to put a smile on our faces.

You know there is NO scientific proof that God doesn't exist... if you don't believe in God who / what would you believe? -- oohhhh, I have the answer you would believe ANYTHING!! How sad... Okay lemme save the preaching for another day...

You know God likes when we praise him, he really does...it makes Him happy. You are NOT any better than the person who died last night or the person who lost their job and got evicted or whose house got foreclosed.
You are not better than the people who were denied visas or who fell into the hands of 419ers or wicked people. You are not any better than friendless, familyless, (both not by choice), lonely people. You are not any better than the deaf, dumb, blind or crippled. All these people even find reason to say Good morning Jesus, what about you?

Go ahead, attribute your good health to the food you eat (and tell me how the food got here), attribute it to laws of nature (which were instituted by who); no, attribute it to yourself (I am a good person) LAWL... really???
Pray, lets not get into that....

So why not just say "Good morning Jesus" when you wake up in the morning. Why can't you just thank Him that your abode did not burn down the night before and the whole of Nigeria didn't catch fire the night b4. A little bit of gratitude and recognition out of your mouth will definately make Him smile.
When Jesus smiles, great things happen....

Just say it with me... Good Morning Jesus!

See it didn't hurt...

One more time, "Thank you Lord for letting me wake up hale and hearty this morning, to you be ALL the praise"

Ohhh, one more thing - VOTE FOR DSCRIBE!!!

FriKKinG PiSsEd OFF!!!

2007-06-19T10:25:00.000-07:00

Yes! I am highly irritated, disgusted, ANGRY at the current situation in Nigeria. I mean what the CRAP????!!!!! I'm so angry I could actually SERIOUSLY SLAP a guilty politician in this mood.

What is so frikking hard to get??? Why are people soo frikking selfish and so stupidly wicked and ignorant??? Its driving me nuts!! I'm tried of hearing about the woes in that country, tired of seeing stupid ass rich stinky greedy people only getting richer because of "their connections"

Tired of seeing the beauty and bruhaha thats not even real. Frikking fake facade of a life people are living when in the same place some more are dying, suffering. It is stark madness!! And please don't gimme that "all fingers are not equal" total B.S!

Now someone, someone smart, please explain to me... why is there about 2 be a strike in Nigeria? Why is petrol N75.oo per liter? Why is there no regulation, no organization?? All these so called smart, even "God fearing" people in politics, tell me whats really good?

Its making me REALLY angry, the type of discomfort indigenes from a "FREE" country suffer. All the natural resources God blessed us with, all the smart and talented people God has blessed us with.... Because of the greed of one man or many, see all the chaos??!!!

It will not be good for the enemies of collective progress in Nigeria. As they steal, cheat and exploit they are laying sharp blades of vengence for their children and generations to come.
I'm frikking tired of all the workers of chaos in Nigeria.... if ur deal is to cause commotion and keep the good for urself, let commotion fill ur life and generations to come and all the "good" u think u are acquiring will only bring pain and sorrow to your life!!!

I'm very pissed off as you can probably tell...but if anyone reading knows any politician that is looking out only for himself and his family; you berra warn them because their joy is only for a short time... great things happen when true Christians pray in ANGER!

vote 4 me!!!!

2007-06-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

Have u voted 2day??? U gats 2 oh!!! Please click on the blogville icon beneath, it'll take u 2 d page u need 2 be!!! Thank You!!!

My MuSt ReAd!!

2007-06-17T20:54:00.000-07:00

In five minutes, Fathers Day 2007 will be over...

I have lots of thots going thru my head with regards to everything going on in my life now. I've been watching TBN for a couple of hours - their Father's Day show and LOTS of things are coming to mind plus I just read Chidi's last posting (shes an excellent blogger) and more things are buggin me.

Okay so Myles Munroe was talking about the importance of a Father and in many ways I could relate cos I have the BEST FATHER in the World!!!! HANDS DOWN...
He's the hottest, the funniest, the sexiest, the most focused man I know. He is a planner, you know the kind of person u'll look at and go, "wow, he's really wealthy" just because of the way he carries himself and plans his life. He such an encourager, very very understanding too.

My Father is a spiritual head also, he doesn't play with God, prayer, religion, spirituality and he's a health freak, man... always tryna put someborri on a diet. Oh and the man can TALK!!! He does a good imitation of EVERYBODY!! He's just sooooo coool, never a dull moment even in down times. I LOVE MY POPS MEHN!!! Espeacially his little talks, sorry not little cos oh boy no dey talk for few minutes, I think I got my talking skills, humor and singing skills from him. He used to sing in a band when he was younger apparently he was a baller. He paints and has a whole scrapbook full of newspaper cartoons that he did for major newspapers when he was in college. He's always been down 2 earth, a hard worker too.

Did I mention he's hawt?? Yeah, by the way I look just like him (thats what everybody says). He's a dresser too mehn, the guy is just too much.... too much.

The way he toasted momsie....
See my moms loves COKE, as in if u need 2 bribe the lady, give her coke... I know, I don't get it either, I mean how can smn love coke so much? But anyhoo, while she was at Uniben when popsie was toasting her... u know now, at first she was fronting, she and her cousin dissed him very well cos. they said he used 2 feel as if he was all that... and momsie too is a hawt mama, yellow boys were toasting her that time too. Anyway oh... so whenever popsie is coming to visit as per, he was a baller, he would buy a crate of coke and some Plymouth bread -- a famous bread (comes in rolls) that momsie absolutely loved (they still make it oh, me i don chop am the thing sweet) She ALWAYS had a crate of coke under her bed in college. Mehn, the tin dey trip me as in 9ja toasting levels.

Nway.... the main reason why i started to write this blog is cos.... (okay, brace urself guys some of u are gonna be disgusted...)
Its really because I feel ready to be married. I mean no pressure but at some point I started feeling like what else is there to do? I mean, I know like self deevlopment and bla bla but its the same ball game, same challenge, nothing new to look 4ward to. Oh I have been laughed at because I'm one of those very erm... "4 marriage only" people and I haven't been in anything serious for fear of God-knows-what, so its kinda like... "marriage??? girl, u are not ready". Well maybe I don't act or seem ready, deep in my mind I am...
Yeah, bla bla marriage is bla bla bla... who really knows first hand until they get into it. Experience is the best teacher. My parents are 10 years apart and they are IN LOVE with each other, its sooo mushy its almost annonying. Momsie married at 23 or so and she met him like 5 0r more years b4.....

Marriage whether early, late or otherwise WORKS! For me though, its the earlier the better. I am such a huge believer in marriage I bet it pisses people off. There are certain things I think couples will do better as opposed to things done single handedly.

So I wonder... as much as I love my pops, will I compare him with every dude that tries 2 talk to me? And if I the dude doesn't gimme as much attention as my pops does (even in d toasting stage) will i run away?? Hmmmmmm.....?????

I've decided to chill though, because right after graduation last year (I was 20) I said I was going to be married by the end of this year (LOL, na magic??).
By the beginning of this year, I was like okay, God just show me the person at least cos. with this whole Masters runs of course I can't pull it off, so lemme just meet the person.
Now, I'm at the "whatever" stage. Jesus take the wheel!!

Oh and nobody should even judge me oh!!! I know I'm still young but LEAVE me!! Everybody's path in life is different!! We all make DIFFERENT choices and its not up to any one man to say whats right or wrong (Only God and Jesus and Holy Spirit and the Holy Bible) and that goes for everythang!! Thanks for reading and please keep voting the Scribe and please help me pray that my voice will be restored. Thanks....

IN AwE...

2007-06-17T16:57:00.000-07:00

Wow 50 votes!!! I really can't believe it!!! I'm grateful.... really, wow

BUT, I have a huge concern...actually more than one huge concern, the most dangerous one at this point is non other but MY VOICE!!

I've been singing since Friday night... and today, I sang all morning. 1st and 2nd service. Still I don't understand why my voice should be CRACKED!! I kinda noticed since the beginning of this year that my voice cracked every sunday after church but then it stopped for a while.

Okkkkaaaaayyyyyy, chai I think I know what happened (I really just remembered). This morning after 1st service I was thirsty for sth sweet so I told my choir director that I wanted 2 buy sth from across the street in the gas station. She said I shud make sure I don't buy sth cold. I really wanted grapefruit juice and I didn't ask the people if they had one that wasn't in the fridge so I bought a cold one....

When I got back to church she asked to see what I bought, she felt the bottle and shook her head, and looked at me like "dis girl, shebi u don't hear?" Nway, to cut the long story short my voice IS cracked! You should have seen how adamant she was about me going across the street to get sth cold. I should have listened indeed.

The lesson I have learned is to always listen to your choir director!!!

How will I sing this R&B song now? Coupled with the fact that I really don't know what to sing..... someborri HELP MEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This "HaRd" life... lol

2007-06-15T21:52:00.001-07:00

Hey people,
mehn that second song almost made me cry oh... despite the fact that its 9ja songs (meaning its sposed 2 be a little bit easy, abi?) mehn, I had the tuffest time ever jeez!!

Okay so, at first i said i will sing Onyeka Onwenu's Bia Nulu, then I switched 2 Seyi Sodimu's Love me jeje, the thing no con gree me so I tried Tuface's Ole and Right Here, I even tried D'banj's Why Me. I just wasn't feeling any of them!!! See I have 2 feel a song 2 sing a song....

I finally settled with Aiye le by OJD AllStars. I felt it... Time to record reach, the thing was sooo LOUD, then i re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded and re-recorded..... The ting tire me oh... Chai, I was able 2 get it in way b4 midnite sha. I hope PINKPEKE them no go vex 4 me.

Today is my adopted lil' sister's (Neef) birthday... shes 18!!! madam if u read dis, PLEASE kindly read that driving book and take the exam ASAP!! Nway, so I'm sure shes happy, I don pray 4 am tire. Happy Birthday hot model... God bless you.

Theres a BRAND NEW blogger in da house everyone. My paddy... okay lemme describe her small... shes cool peoples, my friend's sister, a GREAT cook, she has MADDDD talent, (AJ if u read this, I think u shud take a pix or two of ur works and put it on ur blog, lets show off small, hehe) ehen as I was saying sha, I think shes reallllly coooooolllllll, really.

YOU (yes, you) should check out her blog and show some blogville love to -------
THE PARADIGM!!!!!! http://daparadigm.blogspot.com/

Thank you, thank you, thank you..........
PS: Lets keep d votes rollin people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!