Hypocrites anonymous 1

I honestly will not call myself a "scribe" in the true sense of the word.. but i do have "scribe" tendencies

I do not speak about my writing skills, I speak of my HYPOCRITICAL tendencies...

See, there are MANY things I've done out of naivety, curiosity, sheer ignorance or just total rebellion and I have buried them deep down... so deep down that sometimes i forget... of course I've repented and never gone back to them but there is the one called "the-accuser-of-the-brethren"...

all in all... i do not claim perfection but i strive to it everyday... remembering (as hard as it is) that these "sins" have been blotted out of my heavenly record, by my heavenly Father who loves uncinditionally.. only earthly minds like mine remain scarred and it ought not to be so...

In all this, I have seemingly become a "judge"
calling people out on their "wrongs"
forgetting that I too, had baggage that stinks BAD!!

A wise friend of mine once said, "the more you cover it up, the more it will stink"
no lie... thats why theres restitution... I keep going back to myself

so i have become judge oh... preaching to the world and condemning them
so much so that some pple call me SU...
at some point I started to feel very attractive to sin
because my strive for spiritual perfection is not a silent one...

if you read this, and i have ever made you in the slightest way, to feel unworthy.... please forgive me and know that I only try to protect myself from my strong attraction to "sin" by condemning you...

I have thought several times... "happy are those, who have enjoyed a FREEEE life "of sin" after which they turn to Jesus and receive a full salvation that knows no bounds.. nothing of this world can ever interest them... kinda like New testament Paul" I have also thought, "ah me... struggling to keep my head above water... i haven't "enjoyed the world", I can't go BACK to it.. cos i don't know what "it" feels like... If i ever make a decision to "be of the world" it will be a new orientation for me.... brand new and a real step-down... in the spiritual race.."

I have often thought these things... i have also often envisioned judgment day when God will play our lives on the super huge flat screen... then the world will see my imperfections

I know i care much about my image, because i care about my message... my message that comes off as hypocritical to some, impossible to others.......

to be continued