January 31st

A year ago today, I lost someone I could have found to be precious.. It hurts me more cos I never met him... and I was downcast like I almost am now... I'm just wondering why good people have to die.... and I write this to encourage me and whoever else may feel this way...

When we think He can't hear us
He's not there. He can't see us
He knows
More than ever how much we need Him
So silently He, uses the gentle breeze to
dry our eyes
and He fortifies us, providing answers to our cries
healing for our hearts and strength for our weary bones

Because we cannot understand why
things appear for us so terribly different
we cannot finger our fault compared to the neighbors
We must stay trusting because
He knows
Our daily inner conflicts... more, more than we
can ever imagine
He is here. He will be here. Always.

confirmed...

it is confirmed
what I feel in my heart is love... there is no way it can be anything else

what i feel in my heart is LOVE

a lil' more detail

so i met Laspapi (my mentor!!!) and I attended one of his plays.. it was WOWZERS!!!!!!!
I got to chill with some of my cool buds! Hamza is the bestest!

Nhow, I also wrote a lot, prayed a lot, worked a lot and LOST SOOO MUCH WEIGHT!!

This one is to wet your taste buds a lil' ... and its not yet titled

My rebound lasted a year
And it was you
You were not my relationship
Hard as I tried, it only became
clearer and harder
My words fought my actions
my actions fought the truth
You are the truth.
What I meant to do, I didn't do
Could not do. because I
thought I was afraid of
loosing you, hurting you.... I wasn't.
I only know it now - you were
my rebound, baby.
I cannot say I'm sorry because
it will not suffice
It will not clean up the tears
that fell from your eyes
Because you ignored the ghostly whispers
and chose to be
defeaned by the silence of my soundtrack.
Or our songs.
So many forces fought against this.
I made many promises. To them. Then to you. And me
I was sprung many times,
confused many more.
Heavy hearted with thoughts that
paralyzed me... and they
weren't fun thoughts of you.
I was afraid, you were too.
We lost all confidence and
strenght to pursue
There is a lightness I feel by
my realization and disclosure
I know you'll forgive me and I pray you
find it in your heart to forgive yourself.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I'm back.... and no, i haven't lost the will to blog.

Holidays were restful and nice. Bloggers get-together was fun.

2008 is our year of DIVINE JOYFUL RESTORATION!!!


...I'll blog some more later