a lil' more detail

so i met Laspapi (my mentor!!!) and I attended one of his plays.. it was WOWZERS!!!!!!!
I got to chill with some of my cool buds! Hamza is the bestest!

Nhow, I also wrote a lot, prayed a lot, worked a lot and LOST SOOO MUCH WEIGHT!!

This one is to wet your taste buds a lil' ... and its not yet titled

My rebound lasted a year
And it was you
You were not my relationship
Hard as I tried, it only became
clearer and harder
My words fought my actions
my actions fought the truth
You are the truth.
What I meant to do, I didn't do
Could not do. because I
thought I was afraid of
loosing you, hurting you.... I wasn't.
I only know it now - you were
my rebound, baby.
I cannot say I'm sorry because
it will not suffice
It will not clean up the tears
that fell from your eyes
Because you ignored the ghostly whispers
and chose to be
defeaned by the silence of my soundtrack.
Or our songs.
So many forces fought against this.
I made many promises. To them. Then to you. And me
I was sprung many times,
confused many more.
Heavy hearted with thoughts that
paralyzed me... and they
weren't fun thoughts of you.
I was afraid, you were too.
We lost all confidence and
strenght to pursue
There is a lightness I feel by
my realization and disclosure
I know you'll forgive me and I pray you
find it in your heart to forgive yourself.