this last day of '08

...What a year! Ups, downs, like a roller coaster... Heavy lessons at the many turns

I learned... Friendship is a GAME, Love isn't.
I learned... Wisdom is OFTEN scorned
I learned... Truth is MOSTLY ignored
I learned... Forgiveness and HOW to LeT GO

I loved...

So I thank all the special people who Were, who Are, who Will be and who MAY be... I thank you because with good or bad who taught me lessons this year.

In light of our squabbles, I am grateful for the scorn
And through the past troubles, how you held me in your arm
When "it" blinded me, how you helped me see
How you made me cherish the me I forgot so desperately

And to the ones who left and returned,
the ones I pushed off but still pressed on,
the ones who used and maybe abused... thank you

You who responded before I called,
it seemed like you were just always there
from January 1... the lover, the encourager,
the one we could all call brother (or sister)/lover/friend --
Thank you

I love you with all my heart....
May we all have an awesome 2009!!!
I cannot fully express how grateful I am that
we started... or ended this year...
I LOVE You way more than you can imagine!!!!


2009 IS OUR YEAR OF JOYYY!!!

Thoughts of my passion...

How will it be?
Not like I'm going from pleasure to uncertainty
I mean, I'm quite familiar with the expectations
Question is, Am I ready?
For this, for that
For heat, for rats?
Am I ready for disorganized confusion...
or is there some organization in that disorganization?
Am I ready to be comfortable with
the stark raving inequalities
madness
To accept the dirt and dust-
like I'm accustomed to it, when I'm clearly not?
My biggest concern is - the people, my people
How will I deal with their brash mannerisms
and uncouthness
How will I endure the feferious humbugs?
No, I am not any better, more honest or any more civilized
but I have grown unaccustomed to these things i
lived free of for a sextet

I am nervous and afraid because I love them
I am afraid that they may not love me back
or they may have a strange way of showing it...
Or maybe the conditions surrounding have
suppressed their emotions
Now all they live for is self -- selfish ambition
Or maybe if I am extremely humble
with the lowest of expectations for my
brothers and sisters --
I'll be just fine.

Enter unnoticed, suffer in silence
grow accustomed and eventually join the pack...

December Greetings...

Wishing you all an AWESOME December!!

God bless ...

brb