I honestly will not call myself a "scribe" in the true sense of the word.. but i do have "scribe" tendencies
I do not speak about my writing skills, I speak of my HYPOCRITICAL tendencies...
See, there are MANY things I've done out of naivety, curiosity, sheer ignorance or just total rebellion and I have buried them deep down... so deep down that sometimes i forget... of course I've repented and never gone back to them but there is the one called "the-accuser-of-the-brethren"...
all in all... i do not claim perfection but i strive to it everyday... remembering (as hard as it is) that these "sins" have been blotted out of my heavenly record, by my heavenly Father who loves uncinditionally.. only earthly minds like mine remain scarred and it ought not to be so...
In all this, I have seemingly become a "judge"
calling people out on their "wrongs"
forgetting that I too, had baggage that stinks BAD!!
A wise friend of mine once said, "the more you cover it up, the more it will stink"
no lie... thats why theres restitution... I keep going back to myself
so i have become judge oh... preaching to the world and condemning them
so much so that some pple call me SU...
at some point I started to feel very attractive to sin
because my strive for spiritual perfection is not a silent one...
if you read this, and i have ever made you in the slightest way, to feel unworthy.... please forgive me and know that I only try to protect myself from my strong attraction to "sin" by condemning you...
I have thought several times... "happy are those, who have enjoyed a FREEEE life "of sin" after which they turn to Jesus and receive a full salvation that knows no bounds.. nothing of this world can ever interest them... kinda like New testament Paul" I have also thought, "ah me... struggling to keep my head above water... i haven't "enjoyed the world", I can't go BACK to it.. cos i don't know what "it" feels like... If i ever make a decision to "be of the world" it will be a new orientation for me.... brand new and a real step-down... in the spiritual race.."
I have often thought these things... i have also often envisioned judgment day when God will play our lives on the super huge flat screen... then the world will see my imperfections
I know i care much about my image, because i care about my message... my message that comes off as hypocritical to some, impossible to others.......
to be continued
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Hypocrites anonymous 1
Friday, February 22, 2008
a year ago today...
I started this blog, unsure of what stories to tell
unsure of what the journey would be like
Today, I feel great about my blog... I haven't blogged every single day
I've had lapses but i've enjoyed blogville IMMENSELY...
So I recount my experiences in real life and on blogville since February 22nd, 2007
I had a clique
I thought I had a potential...
I was clueless
I won the Blogville Idols Competition (pinkpeke, time 4 another)
I found some deeply amazing blogs
Bimby started and finished an excellent book series
Some cool people I know joined and stayed on blogville (Paradigm, Adia, Uch, Undaconstruction, Nollege Wizdumb- new blogger by the way... HAWT!!!)
I met some outstanding bloggers (Tayo, Laspapi - mentor m, Favored Girl, Princesa, Comrade, Tope, OverWhelmed, etc)
I found some informative blogs
I uncovered some "open secrets"
I discovered so much about myself
I grew up - spiritually
I turned 22!!!!
I stepped on a nail, and had 2 get a painful tetanus shot
I let go of a LOT of baggage (still have a little left 2 deal with)
I gained possession of dReAm - my beautiful guitar
I developed a better relationship with Jesus
I loved (still love)
I wrote PLENTY
I met new people
I made and broke some promises
I divinely received several lucrative business ideas
I made mistakes and fixed some...
I received unspeakable joy (thank you Jesus)
The Holy Spirit became my senior partner
I'm set for the rest of my journey on blogville!
Monday, February 18, 2008
...dReAm
Hello Everyone,
I now own a guitar.. her name is Dream
I only know of her origin (how i got her)
I do not know much about her specifics... but Chris is determined that I learn...
this and more
Thursday, February 14, 2008
hApPy VaLeNtInE's DaY...
"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." 1stCorin.13v4-7
"Three things will last forever - faith, hope, and love - and the greatest of these is love" 1stCorin.13v13
"Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. 1stJohn4v7&8
Monday, February 11, 2008
na wa oh...
a "purer" form
"Ever known the feeling of when a feeling is
Mutual… very mutual
Yet, nothing. Absolutely nothing can be done about it
Ever known what it feels like to just stare in a person’s eyes
Not seeing anything because you both don’t want to
Sit in the same room. Brush palms. Stare longer and longer
Vertically sited
Eyes, forehead, lips, chin, ears, neck, tummy
Noticing every mark, curve… even in the dark evening
Then leaving
Without doing what your senses scream to do
Because you both don’t want to
You cannot spoil what you have now –
No.
You cannot spoil what may come in the future
…May. come. in. the. future
You both want this badly but
You love too much
You care too much to
Mess it up.
You are embattled by temptation
So deep, so strong that
It hurts when you walk away
You wonder when it will be, if it will be
When you both talk, “its” there…
“It’s” got to be more than lusting
So much has happened
You both are so trusting
So much so that you know you must not
Mess this up."
'hypocrites anonymous' update coming soon...
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Friday, February 8, 2008
Obama for PRESIDENT!
Please check out dis video! Very moving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.dipdive.com/
"WETIN MAN GO DO" VIDEO!
The Amplifyd video - Wetin Man Go Do is OUT!! on www.mytruspot.com or truspotradio.com
I've seen it! I love it! hehehehhehehehehheehe.. find out why
Thursday, February 7, 2008
the oThEr SiDe...
I don't want you to see that side of me
that side of me, you would never believe
cold heart.. uncaring... NOT caring AT ALL!
No, i don't want to show you that side
I sincerely don't want you to see the side
that'll see you crying and NEVER ask why
and walk away, unshaken, uncaring
I don't want to stop caring... but i'm almost there!
I don't want you to see the side that
never picks up when you call
that ignores your "pain" and maybe wishes you more
and more pain.... (muhahahahhahaha)
I don't want you to even smell the side
so pungent. it reeks of
malice - the long buried enemy
a nasty cold shoulder,
of you in the background, licking sores u created
Please, stop pushin me.
ASA
She has helped me believe even more that you must be yourself and do for yourself what you want based on your visions and goal... NOT based on what is "hot" or what is seen as "lucrative"...
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
I saw HeR!!!!!!
okay.. so I must not be such a terrible person but why do i feel so bad???!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I figured there are some things that must happen in life... these things are good or bad... but i don't want to do "bad" what is defined bad? is it really bad... but why does my conscience tug me so???!!!!!!!!!!!!
is it my fault? is it? i think it is.... but i want to blame someone else!! who can i blame? i'll blame Brian.. lol (he's looking over my shoulder as i write this) seriously though....
I'll finish this tonight as soon as i receive that phone call.. cos. i don't want anything bad to come out of this, really... a good friend is a great idea but thats all it should be, thats all i REALLY want.
One good friend, with lots in common
One good friend, brutally honest
One good friend, of course its a guy
One good friend, unafraid 2 show friendship yet sensisitive of his girlfriend's feelings
Just one friend mehn.... it MUST not become anything else!!!
AMEN!!!
Sunday, February 3, 2008
ARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its not confusion
I'm just finding it hard to see
my responsibility
as a possibility that this is my
path.... my path to fulfilling destiny
maybe. maybe not?
I'm petrified. In the "what if" stage
I'm just sooooooooooo confused
and suddenly I wish this blog was anonymous
So i could REALLY pour it all out
and ask your opinion...
you who doesn't know me
Who doesn't know how phony I really am
Who doesn't me my glaring insecurities
My uncertainties.... I do not know what to do!!!!!!
I'm mad at me, for being so honest
so "nice", not strong enough to pull out, say no, MOVE ON!
Even when no love is lost?
Pray for me, Please.
Friday, February 1, 2008
"WETIN MAN GO DO" VIDEO RELEASE
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Baltimore, MARYLAND – Amplifyd Crew will release the much-anticipated music video for the hit song, “Wetin Man Go Do” tomorrow - Saturday February 2, 2008!
With this exciting new development, the organization is showing appreciation to all Amplifyd supporters in the MD/DC/VA areas, as this is where the company has called home. Supporters in these areas have the opportunity to see the video FIRST!
B-eazy states excitedly, “We’ve teamed up with our friends from Groove Entertainment and the video will be showing exclusively this Saturday night (02.02.08) at the Blu Lounge in
On Friday February 8, 2008 Amplifyd plans an even bigger release for fans all across the globe, in appreciation for unwavering support over the years. The entire “Wetin Man Go Do” video will be made accessible for streaming on www.amplifydcrew.com. It will also be available for download on ipods.
In case you haven’t seen the video trailer, please visit this page to be a part of this phenomenon.
http://vjc.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=505216814966&oid=2204989523
The fun only begins here for Amplifyd this 2008. On Saturday, February 16th, 2008 Amplifyd Entertainment & SoSo Selective will be having the Annual Valentines Weekend Massacre Bash. It will be held at the Mayorga's Café. B-eazy warns, “mark your calendar folks, its gonna be one heck of a night and the fun does not stop here!”
For more information on the “Wetin Man Go Do” video release party tomorrow – Saturday February 2, 2008, please contact Temie on 410-493-2799 or visit www.amplifydcrew.com for more information. You can also visit http://syr.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8402431733 to join the guest list.
Have a great Amplifyd weekend!
Amplifyd Worldwide
Here's to a FESTIVE FEBRUARY!
I pray that this month be full of flamboyant festivities for us all!
May we find a reason to celebrate God, Life and Love!!! Amen!!
Today is my Godmother's birthday, I haven't talked to her in like.... I should call her.. I will call her!
Five things February will be for you and me!
February will be FINE!
February will be FUN!!
February will be FLAMBOYANTLY FESTIVE!!!
February will be FORTUNATE!!!!
February will be FAVORABLE!!!!!!
Prophectically speak into this month and say what february will be for you...
Fasting also starts today in all R.C.C.G Churches worldwide... this is our year of LAUGHTER!
Peace, Love and God's blessings!
